After hearing Kabuto-sama speak, she took it all in and looked down with a saddened expression. She then looked up towards a window and focused on the light shining out of it. She was reminded of all the hardships she endured especially when Orochimaru had taken her in. All the experiments...all the countless hours in isolation. She had no friends before then and up till now she was perplexed at the bonds she had created. Were they real or were they "temporary conveniences"? She kept looking up at the window as she replied to Kabuto-sama.
"I cannot deny, to you of all people, that I did not suffer any hardships while confined by Orochimaru. But nonetheless, he created a bond with me. Even if I am a failed test subject, he reached out to me and took care of me. It doesn't matter that the conditions were poor. Up until then, I was all alone. I was scared and hungry. I had no purpose, no goal other than to stay alive. But with Orochimaru...I was able to find a reason to live even if it was a messed up one.
I am not like everyone else Kabuto-sama. There are somethings I do not fear anymore and some things that I can't tell other people because of the fear that they won't understand me. I can question myself all I want but in the end, I am Karin. I can be many things but where would that lead me? No where good that's where. If you want to find yourself, be honest. Don't try being someone you are not and be yourself. But even then...we are in the same place somehow. I don't know who I am other than what people tell me and for now...that's who I'll be.
But as for making a difference...it is easy to shut the world out and think only of yourself because it is safe. No one can harm you or say anything to you that can hurt you. But in the end, you become delusional and instead of hurting others, you hurt yourself. You begin to die inside until there is nothing left but a deep void which nothing but love can fill. Knowing that pain...that hardship...you then begin to recognize it in everyone around you and realize you aren't alone. No matter how strong you look, deep inside...everyone is hurting. We all need help...someone to reach their hand to us and tell us it will be alright. For how long though is up to how long you want to keep it going.
You should know more than me about suffering. You have been out in the world longer than I have. I am now just experiencing the world through these young eyes. Though slowly, this bright optimism is fading as I start to realize just how cruel humanity is. But if you don't make a change to make a change, then you are no better than they (those who cause pain to others consciously) are.
My proposal to you is not about joining some ragtag group of misfits, but rather to be part of something bigger...something much more than a village, more than a country or its interests. I want you to be part of something that will use your talents of persuasion to bring about a change in this war-torn world. Even if for a little while, the less bloodshed that can be spilled the better. You know they say where two or three agree, great things can come about. So, sensei Kabuto, will you accept this message? It is filled with the hopes and dreams of all shinobi to one day come together as one. I believe it is about time such a thing occurred given the last time was a fluke."
With that Karin then looked at Kabuto's eyes. She did not urk in disgust as she did before. She looked deep within for the man she once met. Though Kabuto had been a mere tool in the past, she could see that he had now the means to be whatever he wanted. He was free though trapped in a form not his. Though Karin had a brash personality, she was still a human. She understood people's pain and knew that no matter how horrifying Kabuto can be, he was still human.
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