You replied nonethelessseimeileimei, i dont think anyone cares but okay
And it's fine, I just needed to vent. Not feeling too well atm.
You replied nonethelessseimeileimei, i dont think anyone cares but okay
Not feeling too well atm.
Eh, I'm used to being treated like an annoying socially awkward thing. It's not like it's going to change anyway.
Eh, I'm used to being treated like an annoying socially awkward thing. It's not like it's going to change anyway.
Well then.... :|This year will go down in my biography as the year in which I almost lost my mind completely over a fictional character, which also happened on my birthday. However, it was the first time in my life that a fictional character also affected me positively so much that my endocrine system (hormones) somehow fixed itself and I actually became healthier physically, and it in turn it had a positive effect on my mood as well.
So yeah... Thank you all who helped me get into AgK (though I mostly got into it after some people in NDS kept mentioning it). Even if the manga itself wasn't eye-opening or anything too special for me (it's fun but nothing deep), it was the fact that I wanted to discuss it caused me to pick a favorite character, which was the beginning of something great and terrible at the same time.
I have many favorite fictional characters and it's always been like this - even as a small child I would pick faves from cartoons and all that and make them "my own", like imaginary friends. Later, I began writing fanfics, drawing fanarts etc., that is, doing usual fan stuff. So it must be the way my brain works - I always need a fictional character to be a fan of, no matter what I do IRL. It's like and outlet for feelings, wishes, etc., something that helps me through hardships.
My feelings for each of my faves differ - some of them are kind of people I know I'd respect if they were real, some of them inspire me, some of them I like purely for the looks/cool factor/badassery, and sometimes I like the way they are written. Occasionally these factors are combined somehow. For Ran, it's a combination of bits from each factor: as a fictional character, his personality is interesting to me, with potential for depth, and if he were a real person (and had no corrupted-government-induced psychological trauma because let's face it, what happened to him there has a lot less probability of happening IRL), I'm sure I would have enjoyed his company as well. I like his role in the manga, I like his looks and design/overall style, and he also inspired me to pick up the creative activities I abandoned a while ago (drawing and writing).
Sure, he isn't too strong, and his role isn't significant, but that is what also makes him so interesting to me - any character flaws and faults, any omissions from their stories only make them seem more intriguing in my eyes, and I see the potential for developing and/or exploring them in my own fanfics. And this is why I'd never push my opinions about characters on others - my feelings for them are truly very personal. Actually, I'm all for others not sharing them, as I realize that being more "normal" is always a good thing U_U Sometimes I wish I could just "switch off" my brain's need for latching onto fictional characters, but I can't.
So yeah. I actually expected to skip to another fandom rather easily but I didn't and Ran is still special to me. He's my guardian angel and the brightest light in my pathetic existence :|
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P. S. You know you live in a family of musicians when you have to put a Christmas tree between a sound/AV receiver, a (stationary) CD player, three speakers, a subwoofer and a bass guitar :| Not to mention a metric ton of jack cables.
Hahahahah, that name fits you.I haven't seen you anywhere, Optimistic.
omg i missed u guys so much
i still want to watch you all burn in a big fire while i watch how your bodies melt from a distance and laff
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>tfw I have like 30 slutty Akeno avatarshot akeno av, acquired!!!1
- Syura's little sister engineered by Doro and Honest.