You have jealousy issues.
Your idea of love is control and using someone at your dispense.
It's a contradiction that you say "I think I should depend on myself", but then turn around and say "What do you guys think"...
you're obviously incapable of doing that.
Just accept yourself. You're this jealous, inconsiderate, self-important, 24 year old that's just obsessed with himself.
And here I thought you were simply just pouring your heart out, so disappointing.
I don't think you appreciate the responses you're getting, or actually listening to them...I don't think anything is gonna help you, I think you're just full of jealousy, and have this hidden agenda.
I think you're just "stuck on stupid"...words cannot express the dysfunction and insincerity I get from you. You're "flipped upside down", bro.
Something about you...is just FLIPPED, reverse psychology.