Maybe you just cope different as so many people cope in so many different ways or as Riker said, you're a future psychopath. Don't be a psychopath.
I'm afraid when someone I know personally/am close to dies, I won't cry.
It's not because I don't cry. I cry at movies, sad moments, fictional deaths, and real life stuff, but I fear when someone I know well dies, I won't. I'll be sad, but I'm afraid I just won't. I don't know why. I've cried at the thought of someone I know not being okay because they are old or sick at the moment or whatever, but for some reason, I think I won't and that bothers me.