Why do you guys still RP here?

[Noni]

The people are cool, that is why I rp here.

 

[Mathias]

I don't RP as much as I wanted or once did. Sadly, Life and duty have prevented me from doing so.

I think that like others said, its an addiction. I won't ever say the RP is perfect. Its something that is constantly being built upon. The reason I still keep coming back and haven't simply stepped down and concentrated on others things I enjoy spending my time in, is that... NB is special. NB is a community. And I take pleasure in knowing I work to make it function and keep it going.

NB has helped me through rough patches in life, to simply come online and forget problems, stress, etc. For a few hours a day I could simply interact with people and forget about problems which occupy my mind but that I couldn't actually solve. It has been a huge part of my life, both personal and professional as I have learned many things during my time here and while fullfilling my current duties as a Moderator. Its something that I simply cannot separate from my life. NB is a constant at this point for me. Same as...speaking with my parents on the phone everyday. Its important, its there and its both a duty and a pleasure. Its like...family.

And in NB, I've found family. As cheesy as that sounds. I've found one very big and personal friend that transcends the menial notion of an "NB friend". Coupled with that, I've found and had the pleasure of working with several amazing people. I've met important people like Pervy, Scary Yamato, Nexus, Lawliet, Zen, Caliburn, Wesobi, Ira, Lili, Reborn, Adachi, Madara, Skorm that I'll always take with me. Even if contact is lost. Others that taught me so much about myself and others, that allowed me to learn many things. Like Yard, Howard, Toku, Taiketsu, Vision, Adachi, Sharingdork, Gobi, Kerrah, NK, ZK, Zise, Rei, Vincent, McRazor, Mephistopheles, Scarface, Mugiwara, Roku, Izuna, Mathias, Typhon, Raiden, Kirabi, Kagustsuchi, Goro, Akiza, Emperor, Alucard, Jinbei, Crutch... The list is endless. Some taught me what not to become. Others taught me how to do the job. Others taught me humility. Others respect. Others taught me never to juudge a book by its cover. Others taught me never to expect apple trees to give you oranges. Others taught me that the best intentions are often shrouded in mistakes. Others simply tested me and my ability to...absorb. To shut the **** up and forget. Others tried teaching me stuff I couldn't learn. Others things I never understood...nor they. Most never knew they taught me so much and most still believe I forgot them or dislike them or wtv. But in the end... in the end we all share this "hobby" of manga, anime and the imaginarium that are unreal universes. Where people can shoot fireballs from their hands and fly or others can read minds; where magic exists and is normal. A hobby that makes us argue about stuff that others find simply ridiculous but that only we understand. A place where, despite all our divergences and differences, we all belong. I belong on NB, one way or another. Its a community I belong to. And thats an important feeling that keeps making me come back and stay. That motivates me to work more and more for it. Even at personal and professional costs in RL.

And more importantly is the certainty that I know NB has helped many of you. In many ways. The kid that is bullied in school and comes online to forget the misery he goes through everyday and can feel good for a few hours. Where he can find others that go through the same thing and that understand him. Where he can feel less alone. Where he can learn to surpass it. The kid that has parents that don't care about him, so stressed with their works they are that they don't even know he exists. The kid whose parents got divorced and that feels thorn inside. Or whose parents argue day in day out or that even beat him... The kid that is feeling different because he is afraid he might not be like the others; straight. The kid that is stressed with school and pressured to get good grades but simply can't. The kid that has this huge imagination and inteligence but can't really put it into anything. The kid that faces depression. But also the teenagers, the adults. The people who, in NB, find a community that day in day out allows them to lose themselves and forget all that for a few hours. That allows them to grow, to become stronger, to learn, to cope, to deal with everything. To forget and overcome it all. NB is a community that allows this to all. And a community where many take solace in. Its this knowledge that makes me come back and continue to work for this community to still function and hopefully grow. The knowledge that I'm working for something bigger than myself that actually serves a purpose for so many of us.

I know its a bit cheesy. Or a lot. But its the truth. The idea that by being a moderator I can help all of this happen and exist? Thats superb! Its amazing! And its being part of that....that makes me come back to this site. To RP. To work on it.

Some will not understand and dismiss this as pretty empty words. Others might be indiferent but those who know me know this to be true. Those know how much I sacrifice to be here and work on this community. What we all sacrifice to do it. Those who know me know that I'm temperamental and less forgiving than most with rules, which I take seriously, because NB means so much to me that its hard to put in words. Not because I'm some antisemitic genocidal maniac of the 40's middle europe. That that's the reason why some comments and personal insults have, at times, affected me so much to the point of considering leaving. To the point of questioning "why the **** do I do this?" and not getting much off a valid answer. Because this is something serious to me. Not a joke. And many things can be said of me. That I'm unstable to deal with. That I'm harsh. Sometimes ironic. That I'm temperamental. That I'm stubborn and headstrong. At times borderlining the psicotic. That I've become antisocial. That I'm arrogant. That I'm stupid. However, no one can say that I don't do my best for this community. That I haven't done a good job. That my work is sub par. That I don't know what I'm talking about. That I'm not fair. That I cannot admit I'm wrong when proven otherwise. That I don't care.

So to answer this question, its simple... I come back to this RP and I'm here after 3 years of moderating (yay for me...no one noticed it but its been 3 years in the begining of this month that I've been a moderator) and 6 years, almost 7 of being a member, because I care about this site; its family to me. Its a constant. A certainty in my life. A place that I'll never forget and which, if it ends, will leave an empty hole that nothing will fill. Thats why.

I'd love to sit here and right a big wall of text, however my friend Pedro or also known as Scorps, has pretty much stated anything I wanted to say, him along with Chris, also known by LoK or MU. All I have to say is that, without friends I wouldn't be here. Even if new friends can be made (And they have been) the old ones are what have kept me going all this time, even if I am not as active as I used to be.

As for your 3 Year Aniverssary, I want to congratulate you Pedro. I wish I could have stuck it out with you for as long as you have been. I really give you props for the dedicating you've put into the forums behind the scenes. Thankfully I've been able to see both sides of the fence so I am able to understand a tad bit better.

Note to le people: If Moderators don't seem active while posting and such, it does not mean they aren't doing work! (Waits for le bash <4-1)

 

[Crutch Kaguya]

This song says it all.

 

[Lili-Chwan]

I don't RP as much as I wanted or once did. Sadly, Life and duty have prevented me from doing so.

I think that like others said, its an addiction. I won't ever say the RP is perfect. Its something that is constantly being built upon. The reason I still keep coming back and haven't simply stepped down and concentrated on others things I enjoy spending my time in, is that... NB is special. NB is a community. And I take pleasure in knowing I work to make it function and keep it going.

NB has helped me through rough patches in life, to simply come online and forget problems, stress, etc. For a few hours a day I could simply interact with people and forget about problems which occupy my mind but that I couldn't actually solve. It has been a huge part of my life, both personal and professional as I have learned many things during my time here and while fullfilling my current duties as a Moderator. Its something that I simply cannot separate from my life. NB is a constant at this point for me. Same as...speaking with my parents on the phone everyday. Its important, its there and its both a duty and a pleasure. Its like...family.

And in NB, I've found family. As cheesy as that sounds. I've found one very big and personal friend that transcends the menial notion of an "NB friend". Coupled with that, I've found and had the pleasure of working with several amazing people. I've met important people like Pervy, Scary Yamato, Nexus, Lawliet, Zen, Caliburn, Wesobi, Ira, Lili, Reborn, Adachi, Madara, Skorm that I'll always take with me. Even if contact is lost. Others that taught me so much about myself and others, that allowed me to learn many things. Like Yard, Howard, Toku, Taiketsu, Vision, Adachi, Sharingdork, Gobi, Kerrah, NK, ZK, Zise, Rei, Vincent, McRazor, Mephistopheles, Scarface, Mugiwara, Roku, Izuna, Mathias, Typhon, Raiden, Kirabi, Kagustsuchi, Goro, Akiza, Emperor, Alucard, Jinbei, Crutch... The list is endless. Some taught me what not to become. Others taught me how to do the job. Others taught me humility. Others respect. Others taught me never to juudge a book by its cover. Others taught me never to expect apple trees to give you oranges. Others taught me that the best intentions are often shrouded in mistakes. Others simply tested me and my ability to...absorb. To shut the **** up and forget. Others tried teaching me stuff I couldn't learn. Others things I never understood...nor they. Most never knew they taught me so much and most still believe I forgot them or dislike them or wtv. But in the end... in the end we all share this "hobby" of manga, anime and the imaginarium that are unreal universes. Where people can shoot fireballs from their hands and fly or others can read minds; where magic exists and is normal. A hobby that makes us argue about stuff that others find simply ridiculous but that only we understand. A place where, despite all our divergences and differences, we all belong. I belong on NB, one way or another. Its a community I belong to. And thats an important feeling that keeps making me come back and stay. That motivates me to work more and more for it. Even at personal and professional costs in RL.

And more importantly is the certainty that I know NB has helped many of you. In many ways. The kid that is bullied in school and comes online to forget the misery he goes through everyday and can feel good for a few hours. Where he can find others that go through the same thing and that understand him. Where he can feel less alone. Where he can learn to surpass it. The kid that has parents that don't care about him, so stressed with their works they are that they don't even know he exists. The kid whose parents got divorced and that feels thorn inside. Or whose parents argue day in day out or that even beat him... The kid that is feeling different because he is afraid he might not be like the others; straight. The kid that is stressed with school and pressured to get good grades but simply can't. The kid that has this huge imagination and inteligence but can't really put it into anything. The kid that faces depression. But also the teenagers, the adults. The people who, in NB, find a community that day in day out allows them to lose themselves and forget all that for a few hours. That allows them to grow, to become stronger, to learn, to cope, to deal with everything. To forget and overcome it all. NB is a community that allows this to all. And a community where many take solace in. Its this knowledge that makes me come back and continue to work for this community to still function and hopefully grow. The knowledge that I'm working for something bigger than myself that actually serves a purpose for so many of us.

I know its a bit cheesy. Or a lot. But its the truth. The idea that by being a moderator I can help all of this happen and exist? Thats superb! Its amazing! And its being part of that....that makes me come back to this site. To RP. To work on it.

Some will not understand and dismiss this as pretty empty words. Others might be indiferent but those who know me know this to be true. Those know how much I sacrifice to be here and work on this community. What we all sacrifice to do it. Those who know me know that I'm temperamental and less forgiving than most with rules, which I take seriously, because NB means so much to me that its hard to put in words. Not because I'm some antisemitic genocidal maniac of the 40's middle europe. That that's the reason why some comments and personal insults have, at times, affected me so much to the point of considering leaving. To the point of questioning "why the **** do I do this?" and not getting much off a valid answer. Because this is something serious to me. Not a joke. And many things can be said of me. That I'm unstable to deal with. That I'm harsh. Sometimes ironic. That I'm temperamental. That I'm stubborn and headstrong. At times borderlining the psicotic. That I've become antisocial. That I'm arrogant. That I'm stupid. However, no one can say that I don't do my best for this community. That I haven't done a good job. That my work is sub par. That I don't know what I'm talking about. That I'm not fair. That I cannot admit I'm wrong when proven otherwise. That I don't care.

So to answer this question, its simple... I come back to this RP and I'm here after 3 years of moderating (yay for me...no one noticed it but its been 3 years in the begining of this month that I've been a moderator) and 6 years, almost 7 of being a member, because I care about this site; its family to me. Its a constant. A certainty in my life. A place that I'll never forget and which, if it ends, will leave an empty hole that nothing will fill. Thats why.

Pft, get off the internet, old man

 

[Daemon]

I have RPed here for almost six years. Six years fam. Why I still do it I have no idea. It's not even friends because I can always contact them from my phone with a simple whatsapp message or kik message. It's really something I can't put my finger on. I guess there is something to the RP that draws me back. I mean shit I started young. I could have left at any time permanently but I didn't.

I think I'm still here because it's a quick escape from reality for the 3-5 hours I'm on. Why do I need to escape? I don't know guess its just fun. Sometimes NB gets boring for me so I come on less and less and less. Then I take a break and come back, somehow I find myself having some sort of fun again.

And I like making fun of Gobi.

 

[Noni]

I have RPed here for almost six years. Six years fam. Why I still do it I have no idea. It's not even friends because I can always contact them from my phone with a simple whatsapp message or kik message. It's really something I can't put my finger on. I guess there is something to the RP that draws me back. I mean shit I started young. I could have left at any time permanently but I didn't.

I think I'm still here because it's a quick escape from reality for the 3-5 hours I'm on. Why do I need to escape? I don't know guess its just fun. Sometimes NB gets boring for me so I come on less and less and less. Then I take a break and come back, somehow I find myself having some sort of fun again.

And I like making fun of Gobi.

Sometimes you gotta run through the mud..I mean tape.

Nice one bro we all need escape from reality every once and awhile

 

[Summer]

The people are cool, that is why I rp here.

I don't even cool I just stay among the media.

Pft, get off the internet, old man

Is the same age as him and now feels old thanks for this lili. Someday you'll feel the way we do and have no escape no one to talk to and the Internet will not let you on ha.

 

[Omega]

I'm slightly addicted, things I still wanna do, I hang with my homies on the base, and I get a break from math. xD

 

[BusinessManTeno]

The amount of wallies I seen is unbearable. IT SICKENS ME!!
So to scorps, you pretty much stay on here pretty much for the same reason as me.. except 75% less. LOL. I sorta feel a type of gratitude.. and now tbh, i forgot most of what u said.. to much to quote.. My head hurts now.

To be perfectly honest I will likely quit come summer or spring and likely won't return to Rp as once I finish my Kinjutsu for my crystal bio my goal is done. I do enjoy making customs but when things are this restricted it's become more of a nuisance then anything especially since there's an abundance of op shit out there.

I never had anybody guide me and say here want some help I've just always done this myself so it becomes more irritating then anything when this Rp is going down the drain as is anyways. Not that this is the reason I despise the rp it's because of a plethora of reasons which everybody knows already.

So in short the only reason I'm sticking around is to finish my kinjutsu and or get a custom Crystal bio. Which I find irritable considering there was a rumoured Crystal clan that went extinct in the fillers so just stop restricting these bio's so damn much.

Give options not restrictions upon restrictions.

Many of the mods hear ah the good ole days we'll explain what ruined the good ole days the. You have your answers to why the rp is struggling

Thats something I never got. Why is the kaguya clan allowed custom bios but not crystal clans?

I'd love to sit here and right a big wall of text, however my friend Pedro or also known as Scorps, has pretty much stated anything I wanted to say, him along with Chris, also known by LoK or MU. All I have to say is that, without friends I wouldn't be here. Even if new friends can be made (And they have been) the old ones are what have kept me going all this time, even if I am not as active as I used to be.

As for your 3 Year Aniverssary, I want to congratulate you Pedro. I wish I could have stuck it out with you for as long as you have been. I really give you props for the dedicating you've put into the forums behind the scenes. Thankfully I've been able to see both sides of the fence so I am able to understand a tad bit better.

Note to le people: If Moderators don't seem active while posting and such, it does not mean they aren't doing work! (Waits for le bash <4-1)

Nobody said they arent doing work. But ive known scorps for almost 12years. Im almost sure I know what my uncle is doing.. OOPS! PLOT TWIST! yall didnt know that did you.

I have RPed here for almost six years. Six years fam. Why I still do it I have no idea. It's not even friends because I can always contact them from my phone with a simple whatsapp message or kik message. It's really something I can't put my finger on. I guess there is something to the RP that draws me back. I mean shit I started young. I could have left at any time permanently but I didn't.

I think I'm still here because it's a quick escape from reality for the 3-5 hours I'm on. Why do I need to escape? I don't know guess its just fun. Sometimes NB gets boring for me so I come on less and less and less. Then I take a break and come back, somehow I find myself having some sort of fun again.

And I like making fun of Gobi.

I'm slightly addicted, things I still wanna do, I hang with my homies on the base, and I get a break from math. xD

This.. Like I said, I consider alot of people of here really good friends. But truth of the matter
Diego (Loki), Ramon (Broly), Shayan (Selendrile), Ian (...Ian) , and Drey(Light) , are the ones who i feel like helped me grow. I remember I went around asking everybody for battle training, to be under there wing, but weirdly, as I was seeking for somebody to help pave my path, I had my own group (Hidden Ash Village, Brothers In Arms, etc) looking up to me. I was the big brother, and had some pretty bad ass lil bros (Cursed Prince & Scaze)

and I remember one day I asked some random strong noob (Tsch) and he told me he dont think I need BT or any guidance. He said I just F*** up timeframe often, but my skills are good. Idk if he was just saying that but that boosted my self-esteem, but I always disliked the fact that somebody like me (Old wise) who wanted to become stronger so I can help others become stronger was neglected. So in short I had grown by making alot of mistakes and those names from above (My niglons) I felt made it possible

I personally take likings to random people whom I see potential in. Mainly being Omega. I always said, my main one and only goal is to create my custom clan, then become sensei. At that moment I will give all I got to my successor which atm I feel would be omega. I then would leave in style.

I dont talk to even my friends cause like daemon said, I can easily hit them up on my cell phone (no homo.. specially shayan.. He has a deep voice.. No homo. lol but weirdly, Idk. somebody is always here that needs help, and I like to be that person to pick the next big thing. What can I say. People would think I birthed Scorps, Lili, and LOK how awesome I am. #Lehgo!

 

[Scorps]

Please Teno... 12 years ago you were still in your dad's gonads.

Ps- There was a Kaguya Clan... There was one person capable of using Crystal. >_> Not sure where the doubt is coming from regarding this...

 

[Kirikoe]

Please Teno... 12 years ago you were still in your dad's gonads.

Ps- There was a Kaguya Clan... There was one person capable of using Crystal. >_> Not sure where the doubt is coming from regarding this...

It was hinted that there were others who could use the crystal release although it was rare. it also says this in the wiki.

Anyways so that im not considered spamming.

I like to RP here mainly because its fun to create a character purely from scratch. give them unique traits and such. its almost like you put yourself into the NW which is one reason why i continue to RP. that as well as friends.

but i do dislike how most of the idea's have been done already and how no one has access to them due to these people going inactive.

 

[BusinessManTeno]

Please Teno... 12 years ago you were still in your dad's gonads.

Ps- There was a Kaguya Clan... There was one person capable of using Crystal. >_> Not sure where the doubt is coming from regarding this...

Uncle please!! stop fronting for NB. They named my middle name after you

Faizon Pedro (Insert Last Name Here)

Also, Tsunade said crystal was a KG with a clan but was exterminated. She was in the office and got a report (I remember this cause its the arc of my favorite tailed bease #SanbiIsLife

@kirikoe.. What do you mean? In terms of Customs? If you are talking about RP. There are hundreds of ways and things left that can be done. One being the bounty system (LeaderBoard) which I pray to god, helps get rid of the anti-rp feeling of mine. It seems a pretty good idea, and i read it over the course of the week and glad to see the "NW UPDATE" that was said to happen 2years ago !!! wasnt a rumor... Or maybe it was and.... PLOT TWIST: LOK MADE THE NW UPDATE IN 1WEEK! HE GAVE US SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN! THUS IT KEPT US ON EDGE! Lok, you sly mofo .

But I hope this isnt the end (Which I dont think it is) It seems the rp is having a bit of story input.. Hopefully rogue ninjas like me can form an organization for a common goal..... wait.... that sounds too familiar .. :|

 

[Kirikoe]

Uncle please!! stop fronting for NB. They named my middle name after you

Faizon Pedro (Insert Last Name Here)

Also, Tsunade said crystal was a KG with a clan but was exterminated. She was in the office and got a report (I remember this cause its the arc of my favorite tailed bease #SanbiIsLife

@kirikoe.. What do you mean? In terms of Customs? If you are talking about RP. There are hundreds of ways and things left that can be done. One being the bounty system (LeaderBoard) which I pray to god, helps get rid of the anti-rp feeling of mine. It seems a pretty good idea, and i read it over the course of the week and glad to see the "NW UPDATE" that was said to happen 2years ago !!! wasnt a rumor... Or maybe it was and.... PLOT TWIST: LOK MADE THE NW UPDATE IN 1WEEK! HE GAVE US SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN! THUS IT KEPT US ON EDGE! Lok, you sly mofo .

But I hope this isnt the end (Which I dont think it is) It seems the rp is having a bit of story input.. Hopefully rogue ninjas like me can form an organization for a common goal..... wait.... that sounds too familiar .. :|

There are plenty of idea's for the RP as a whole i was referring to abilities and such. people make some good stuff however some never pass it on and go inactive and thus leaves the ability in limbo for it to never be used nor recreated again. as such the idea goes to waist and this gets on my nerves a little bit.

plus having small groups of rogue ninja going around causing a bit of hassle and fun and making their own events in the RP sounds good. is they are small groups like Taka was it would be fine im sure.

 

[Lord of Kaos]

Uncle please!! stop fronting for NB. They named my middle name after you

Faizon Pedro (Insert Last Name Here)

Also, Tsunade said crystal was a KG with a clan but was exterminated. She was in the office and got a report (I remember this cause its the arc of my favorite tailed bease #SanbiIsLife

@kirikoe.. What do you mean? In terms of Customs? If you are talking about RP. There are hundreds of ways and things left that can be done. One being the bounty system (LeaderBoard) which I pray to god, helps get rid of the anti-rp feeling of mine. It seems a pretty good idea, and i read it over the course of the week and glad to see the "NW UPDATE" that was said to happen 2years ago !!! wasnt a rumor... Or maybe it was and.... PLOT TWIST: LOK MADE THE NW UPDATE IN 1WEEK! HE GAVE US SOMETHING TO BELIEVE IN! THUS IT KEPT US ON EDGE! Lok, you sly mofo .

But I hope this isnt the end (Which I dont think it is) It seems the rp is having a bit of story input.. Hopefully rogue ninjas like me can form an organization for a common goal..... wait.... that sounds too familiar .. :|

I dont know what you're talking about.

 

[Scorps]

Oh the smell of fresh rant... 4th page. Not bad. Normally the opening post already contains a rant. There might be some hope after all...


As for crystal, if you know this pm me the anime episode where this happened and was mentioned so I can check it and see if I need to change those rules. I honestly dont remember any reference to a clan where Crystal was used. I remember the reference that Guren was the last of her clan and the only user of Crystal. Its a bit different to say it like that. For example, one could have been the last survivor of the Uchiha clan and not possess the Sharingan. Of the other way around. Not all people from a given clan possess the same Kg. Hashirama was from the Senju clan yet was the only wood user. So I need some review of this matter so who ever wants to, check and see which episode its mentioned that Guren comes from a Crystal Release Clan.

 

[Klad]

Lately I've been kind of inactive, simply because my interest in RP is decerasing slowly over time. But there might be a day when you could find me in the RP section all day. It depends really. I sometimes like to RP here cause it's cool to learn new abilities, but some other time it gets pretty boring and repetetive.

 

[Summer]

Oh the smell of fresh rant... 4th page. Not bad. Normally the opening post already contains a rant. There might be some hope after all...


As for crystal, if you know this pm me the anime episode where this happened and was mentioned so I can check it and see if I need to change those rules. I honestly dont remember any reference to a clan where Crystal was used. I remember the reference that Guren was the last of her clan and the only user of Crystal. Its a bit different to say it like that. For example, one could have been the last survivor of the Uchiha clan and not possess the Sharingan. Of the other way around. Not all people from a given clan possess the same Kg. Hashirama was from the Senju clan yet was the only wood user. So I need some review of this matter so who ever wants to, check and see which episode its mentioned that Guren comes from a Crystal Release Clan.

It's where tsunades gets the crystal delivered and she recalls a clan during a great ninja war.
I have all the episodes on iTunes so it's not like I'm just blowing smoke

 

[Scorps]

It's where tsunades gets the crystal delivered and she recalls a clan during a great ninja war.
I have all the episodes on iTunes so it's not like I'm just blowing smoke

Not saying that. But I need to see it for myself. Many things have been claimed to never then be verified and to have only been misunderstandings.

 

[The_Empire]

I have RPed here for almost six years. Six years fam. Why I still do it I have no idea. It's not even friends because I can always contact them from my phone with a simple whatsapp message or kik message. It's really something I can't put my finger on. I guess there is something to the RP that draws me back. I mean shit I started young. I could have left at any time permanently but I didn't.

I think I'm still here because it's a quick escape from reality for the 3-5 hours I'm on. Why do I need to escape? I don't know guess its just fun. Sometimes NB gets boring for me so I come on less and less and less. Then I take a break and come back, somehow I find myself having some sort of fun again.

And I like making fun of Gobi.

Is this the reason for me? Hmm this is very interesting.

Whats the reason I have been here so long. Besides escape from rl and work, I like anime and manga and rping gives me that story line of actually being one of those folks in the manga and/or anime.

I don't RP as much as I wanted or once did. Sadly, Life and duty have prevented me from doing so.

I think that like others said, its an addiction. I won't ever say the RP is perfect. Its something that is constantly being built upon. The reason I still keep coming back and haven't simply stepped down and concentrated on others things I enjoy spending my time in, is that... NB is special. NB is a community. And I take pleasure in knowing I work to make it function and keep it going.

NB has helped me through rough patches in life, to simply come online and forget problems, stress, etc. For a few hours a day I could simply interact with people and forget about problems which occupy my mind but that I couldn't actually solve. It has been a huge part of my life, both personal and professional as I have learned many things during my time here and while fullfilling my current duties as a Moderator. Its something that I simply cannot separate from my life. NB is a constant at this point for me. Same as...speaking with my parents on the phone everyday. Its important, its there and its both a duty and a pleasure. Its like...family.

And in NB, I've found family. As cheesy as that sounds. I've found one very big and personal friend that transcends the menial notion of an "NB friend". Coupled with that, I've found and had the pleasure of working with several amazing people. I've met important people like Pervy, Scary Yamato, Nexus, Lawliet, Zen, Caliburn, Wesobi, Ira, Lili, Reborn, Adachi, Madara, Skorm that I'll always take with me. Even if contact is lost. Others that taught me so much about myself and others, that allowed me to learn many things. Like Yard, Howard, Toku, Taiketsu, Vision, Adachi, Sharingdork, Gobi, Kerrah, NK, ZK, Zise, Rei, Vincent, McRazor, Mephistopheles, Scarface, Mugiwara, Roku, Izuna, Mathias, Typhon, Raiden, Kirabi, Kagustsuchi, Goro, Akiza, Emperor, Alucard, Jinbei, Crutch... The list is endless. Some taught me what not to become. Others taught me how to do the job. Others taught me humility. Others respect. Others taught me never to juudge a book by its cover. Others taught me never to expect apple trees to give you oranges. Others taught me that the best intentions are often shrouded in mistakes. Others simply tested me and my ability to...absorb. To shut the **** up and forget. Others tried teaching me stuff I couldn't learn. Others things I never understood...nor they. Most never knew they taught me so much and most still believe I forgot them or dislike them or wtv. But in the end... in the end we all share this "hobby" of manga, anime and the imaginarium that are unreal universes. Where people can shoot fireballs from their hands and fly or others can read minds; where magic exists and is normal. A hobby that makes us argue about stuff that others find simply ridiculous but that only we understand. A place where, despite all our divergences and differences, we all belong. I belong on NB, one way or another. Its a community I belong to. And thats an important feeling that keeps making me come back and stay. That motivates me to work more and more for it. Even at personal and professional costs in RL.

And more importantly is the certainty that I know NB has helped many of you. In many ways. The kid that is bullied in school and comes online to forget the misery he goes through everyday and can feel good for a few hours. Where he can find others that go through the same thing and that understand him. Where he can feel less alone. Where he can learn to surpass it. The kid that has parents that don't care about him, so stressed with their works they are that they don't even know he exists. The kid whose parents got divorced and that feels thorn inside. Or whose parents argue day in day out or that even beat him... The kid that is feeling different because he is afraid he might not be like the others; straight. The kid that is stressed with school and pressured to get good grades but simply can't. The kid that has this huge imagination and inteligence but can't really put it into anything. The kid that faces depression. But also the teenagers, the adults. The people who, in NB, find a community that day in day out allows them to lose themselves and forget all that for a few hours. That allows them to grow, to become stronger, to learn, to cope, to deal with everything. To forget and overcome it all. NB is a community that allows this to all. And a community where many take solace in. Its this knowledge that makes me come back and continue to work for this community to still function and hopefully grow. The knowledge that I'm working for something bigger than myself that actually serves a purpose for so many of us.

I know its a bit cheesy. Or a lot. But its the truth. The idea that by being a moderator I can help all of this happen and exist? Thats superb! Its amazing! And its being part of that....that makes me come back to this site. To RP. To work on it.

Some will not understand and dismiss this as pretty empty words. Others might be indiferent but those who know me know this to be true. Those know how much I sacrifice to be here and work on this community. What we all sacrifice to do it. Those who know me know that I'm temperamental and less forgiving than most with rules, which I take seriously, because NB means so much to me that its hard to put in words. Not because I'm some antisemitic genocidal maniac of the 40's middle europe. That that's the reason why some comments and personal insults have, at times, affected me so much to the point of considering leaving. To the point of questioning "why the **** do I do this?" and not getting much off a valid answer. Because this is something serious to me. Not a joke. And many things can be said of me. That I'm unstable to deal with. That I'm harsh. Sometimes ironic. That I'm temperamental. That I'm stubborn and headstrong. At times borderlining the psicotic. That I've become antisocial. That I'm arrogant. That I'm stupid. However, no one can say that I don't do my best for this community. That I haven't done a good job. That my work is sub par. That I don't know what I'm talking about. That I'm not fair. That I cannot admit I'm wrong when proven otherwise. That I don't care.

So to answer this question, its simple... I come back to this RP and I'm here after 3 years of moderating (yay for me...no one noticed it but its been 3 years in the begining of this month that I've been a moderator) and 6 years, almost 7 of being a member, because I care about this site; its family to me. Its a constant. A certainty in my life. A place that I'll never forget and which, if it ends, will leave an empty hole that nothing will fill. Thats why.

This guy here, Idk something about him I like. I just can't put my finger on it. Dang just know I like this guy. (no homo for those who would think that way <_<)

 

[Omega]

This.. Like I said, I consider alot of people of here really good friends. But truth of the matter
Diego (Loki), Ramon (Broly), Shayan (Selendrile), Ian (...Ian) , and Drey(Light) , are the ones who i feel like helped me grow. I remember I went around asking everybody for battle training, to be under there wing, but weirdly, as I was seeking for somebody to help pave my path, I had my own group (Hidden Ash Village, Brothers In Arms, etc) looking up to me. I was the big brother, and had some pretty bad ass lil bros (Cursed Prince & Scaze)

and I remember one day I asked some random strong noob (Tsch) and he told me he dont think I need BT or any guidance. He said I just F*** up timeframe often, but my skills are good. Idk if he was just saying that but that boosted my self-esteem, but I always disliked the fact that somebody like me (Old wise) who wanted to become stronger so I can help others become stronger was neglected. So in short I had grown by making alot of mistakes and those names from above (My niglons) I felt made it possible

I personally take likings to random people whom I see potential in. Mainly being Omega. I always said, my main one and only goal is to create my custom clan, then become sensei. At that moment I will give all I got to my successor which atm I feel would be omega. I then would leave in style.

I dont talk to even my friends cause like daemon said, I can easily hit them up on my cell phone (no homo.. specially shayan.. He has a deep voice.. No homo. lol but weirdly, Idk. somebody is always here that needs help, and I like to be that person to pick the next big thing. What can I say. People would think I birthed Scorps, Lili, and LOK how awesome I am. #Lehgo!

LOL Omega who is that guy? Anyway I'll keep supporting you to become sensei bro cuz I think you deserve to be one and you helped me and others without asking anything in return. If I happen to be your successor you can trust I'm a be a total badass and carry the torch. xD