i wish i could let stuff in the past go. i hold unto shit and never let it go, like its done, i cant change it...but i still be thinking about what happened like im going to come to a different conclusion or some shit. like its not healthy
like for instance i was working out early today and i started thinking about how when i was in high school. this girl i liked so much friend zoned me just because i was too skinny. like bruh, that was over 10 years ago and im still bothered by that and use it as fuel when i was working out. or like yesterday i was eating dinner and i started thinking about how my ex would cook in her underwear, which made me think about how she broke my heart and i felt that pain again so a second and i had to step outside and get some air. like i be holding unto grudges and shit
its pushed me to be better a lot and like make people feel bad for doubting me or prove them wrong or whatever. but man its not good, i try to just stop thinking about it when its happening but its like my brain drifts back, its getting old. some stuff i just wish i could let go of damn