[Discussion] what should i do?

[izinagi54]

please read this before posting or reading below the text

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this not a time to joke around i am dead serious about all this so anyone comes in here acting like a jerk... i don't know what im going to do i feel like im being forced to choose between my dad who is healthy and my grandma who is sick

my father keeps going down to his trashy girlfriend. down to her grandson and her childern their both in their 40s.
he keeps putting our time off and spending every ****ing penny on her and her family. i feel like he has abandon me. for love god i sometimes think of ways to kill myself because any time we talk it always turns into a fight. i go to high school thats stressful.
i have
football
poetry
friends
my ****ing family life
writing things for you guys helps calm my nerves.
my grandma is getting to the point were she needs help all the time.
writing a play
hell even trying to keep my social life (whats left of it)
god **** it i hate my life my mother abused me at the time i was born until i was 5 then my dad took me away then he goes around putting me off like im a little embrassment. what did i do.... WHAT DID I DO!!!!!!!! thats so wrong to cause him to do this. i mean i tried to be the perfect son. for the love of god i let people step on me like im trash and put on a fake smile and walk away. i need help

 

[Hipster Madara]

Talk about it to your Dad. if he doesn't listen, then IMO choose your grandma. At least she will be grateful for your presence and your help. Your dad seems like he doesn't care. but i could be wrong, seeing as I don't know you nor your father.

Don't get down and social life isn't as important as studying. you can make plenty of friends whenever but you can't study and improve your future whenever as it gets harder with age.

Good luck!

 

[OhReary]

Yo, i can relate i'm still having trouble with my fathers loyalty with my mother,
its really made us distant, everytime i talk to him, he brushes it off.
I don't really have advice, but what i'd do is force a conversation.

 

[Seiler]

What you should do?

Probably find another place to look for help, maybe a shrink or a friend. Sorry for the harsh way to put it, but i kinda think that this is'nt the place for this.

 

[MacMiller]

I don't get the ethical dilemma here.
You're asking us if you should talk to your dad or to your grandma?

 

[Punk Hazard]

1. no disrespect, but a forum is not be the best place to ask for help. you should see a professional

2. i think you should tell your dad what you feel, tell him how this is hurting you

 

[Grim]

One day he will regret, that day when you wont give a ****, you will have you're own family.

 

[izinagi54]

im sorry im just trying to get help. i wish i had the one thing that held my life together back but god took him from me.... i have everything to gain but nothing to loose

 

[Nikohru]

I don't know how to help and I don't know what you're going through but you're definitely loved. Maybe not by your Dad but your friends love you. Don't let your dad stress you out. Focus your attention on your sick grandma who needs help. Strike conversations with her. You never know.... she might be lonely as well :hug:

 

[Ryuu..]

I think you need professional help.

 

[Punk Hazard]

not to be funny, but you have the makings of a rapper

 

[Nikohru]

not to be funny, but you have the makings of a rapper

not the time :sy:

 

[Punk Hazard]

not the time :sy:

sorry

 

[izinagi54]

not to be funny, but you have the makings of a rapper

yeah i actually worked on poems to relief my stress....

you abandon me
like you never cared about me
you always glare at me
i am your little fail
but you are the one thats stale
you have your *****
now you don't get no more
my love is not a glove
once you screw me over
i'll be taking over
from now on this my lfe
now watch as i take control
of the flow
cause you want no mo
you little man ho
for i am me
and i am not you
for i care
and do not glare
so why don't you take your stare
and move some where

 

[izinagi54]

thats my stress relief

 

[Punk Hazard]

yeah i actually worked on poems to relief my stress....

you abandon me
like you never cared about me
you always glare at me
i am your little fail
but you are the one thats stale
you have your *****
now you don't get no more
my love is not a glove
once you screw me over
i'll be taking over
from now on this my lfe
now watch as i take control
of the flow
cause you want no mo
you little man ho
for i am me
and i am not you
for i care
and do not glare
so why don't you take your stare
and move some where

nice, hope it all works out for you

 

[Prince of Persia TTT]

please read this before posting or reading below the text

Spoiler

this not a time to joke around i am dead serious about all this so anyone comes in here acting like a jerk... i don't know what im going to do i feel like im being forced to choose between my dad who is healthy and my grandma who is sick

my father keeps going down to his trashy girlfriend. down to her grandson and her childern their both in their 40s.
he keeps putting our time off and spending every ****ing penny on her and her family. i feel like he has abandon me. for love god i sometimes think of ways to kill myself because any time we talk it always turns into a fight. i go to high school thats stressful.
i have
football
poetry
friends
my ****ing family life
writing things for you guys helps calm my nerves.
my grandma is getting to the point were she needs help all the time.
writing a play
hell even trying to keep my social life (whats left of it)
god **** it i hate my life my mother abused me at the time i was born until i was 5 then my dad took me away then he goes around putting me off like im a little embrassment. what did i do.... WHAT DID I DO!!!!!!!! thats so wrong to cause him to do this. i mean i tried to be the perfect son. for the love of god i let people step on me like im trash and put on a fake smile and walk away. i need help

Well you know though i never had my parents along me till date
i can truly understand your feelings but you know you should be now gettiing the hang of it becoz it hurted me as well when i saw my parents not concentrating on me but then after some time i started neglecting them so now its been five years i didnt had a word with them i dont feel like and now it doesnt matters if i have my parents with me or not i have my friends, you guys, and nothing else. So you see its not a easy life but life has to go on it doesnt stops when you face difficulties, but then there will be a time when you will be the happiest man this is what i think so that i can find some peace within me i hope you will find this worth reading and sorry if you feel offended after reading this

 

[Jazzy..]

I know you are having a hard time right now, and I'm very sorry all of this is happening to you. But stay strong, do your best in school, and try to talk to your dad about your thoughts on his actions lately...
As for your grandma, I hope she is getting the help she needs. D:

I also hope things will get better for you. I know it seems like you're life will keep going downhill, but there will come a day when your life may change course and travel uphill. Until that day, I wish you luck, and don't think about ways to kill yourself. Suicide is the worst option for any kind of situation. Be strong; you will make it. <3

 

[izinagi54]

Well you know though i never had my parents along me till date
i can truly understand your feelings but you know you should be now gettiing the hang of it becoz it hurted me as well when i saw my parents not concentrating on me but then after some time i started neglecting them so now its been five years i didnt had a word with them i dont feel like and now it doesnt matters if i have my parents with me or not i have my friends, you guys, and nothing else. So you see its not a easy life but life has to go on it doesnt stops when you face difficulties, but then there will be a time when you will be the happiest man this is what i think so that i can find some peace within me i hope you will find this worth reading and sorry if you feel offended after reading this

im not offeneded your right but i just wished it would not go like this

 

[Nikohru]

sorry

it's cool
then he posted this =DD
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yeah i actually worked on poems to relief my stress....

you abandon me
like you never cared about me
you always glare at me
i am your little fail
but you are the one thats stale
you have your *****
now you don't get no more
my love is not a glove
once you screw me over
i'll be taking over
from now on this my lfe
now watch as i take control
of the flow
cause you want no mo
you little man ho
for i am me
and i am not you
for i care
and do not glare
so why don't you take your stare
and move some where

:y: maybe you should rap :scorps: