Every girl I've actually liked and asked out has rejected the offer. It's made me not care about rejection and I'm not afraid to speak to anybody really, even if they find my personality awkward. It's also made me uninterested in a love life.
Lost my best friend. He's kind of doing badly in life now through bad decisions, and always was a pessimist. He was kind of a toxic punk, but I dunno, I figured that would end some time. That friendship made me a lot harsher/assertive on friends I ever fight with.
All in all, I have failed in having close personal relationships with anybody. I succeed in anything I set my mind to, except when it comes to others who are close or I try to get closer. I'm a king of casual acquaintance relationships, but can't be close to anyone.