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Chapter 4 is now up!!!! its a bit smaller then usual.... but hope you all enjoy it!!!!!
Big thanks to alll who have read n comment on the last chapters
and if you are new to my lil book... story then please read the first 3 chaps... heres the links:
now its time for chapter 4:
I woke up sweat running down my forehead, Cam was nowhere to be seen; he must have left after I fell asleep. My heart fluttered as I looked at the time, it was four AM and all the sounds were gone. The silence was something I loved, no storm noises, no loud anything, just quiet. Except now I can hear the light mutters from downs stairs, like the chattering of birds. It was strange to hear as they became louder, as I am more aware of their presence. I moved slowly off my bed and crept quietly down the stairs, the noises became clearer as I edged the last step.
“…. She bloody going through shit, she cried in her sleep, Miki you have to tell her!” It was Cam’s voice no doubt and they were at it again, fighting and yelling because they thought I was asleep. Why is this happening?
“ I can’t Cam, she been through enough… I don’t want her hurting to…” Miki’s voice quivered in reply.
“Miki if you don’t tell her, I will,” he growled at her.
“ What… What am I meant to say, oh hey sweetie I just like to tell you I have cancer…” My mouth dropped as I stumbled back on the stairs, my hand screaming in pain as I land on it, with my heart feeling like it had stopped and ran away from me, just so it could escape all the pain.
The door swung open and Miki rushed out, her dressing gown pulled tight around her, her hair a mess and her face grave. She looked at me with sorrow filled eyes, which edged into my soul.
“Sweetie..” she spoke, but it was to late now, I knew what was going and she didn’t tell me, she did want to tell me, but it cant be.
“No… “ I muttered as a tear ran down my cheek. “ No, Miki why? Why didn’t you say anything?”
“I… I didn’t want to hurt you,” she whispered.
“What and by not telling me this saves me from hurting, Miki what if it was to late! What if you were lying in hospital dead! Don’t you think that would hurt me more? Miki!” I yelled at her with all my might, my heart sinking inside me, it hurt. It hurts like hell, like my whole world is crashing over, with a raging ring of flames and the demons that all come with it.
“I’m sorry,” she pleaded bending down trying to comfort me, but she was to late. It’s too late, I have lost it, my world, and the only thing I know, now will have a piece missing. That piece, one that I have loved for years is dying.
“No your not, your not sorry at all,” I screamed pulling my head in my hands curling myself into a ball. I heard the door slam against the wall; a looming figure entered my mind as a dark spark hit the walls of my heart.
“See Miki, look at her look what you have done!” Cam yelled forcing the whole room to shift atmosphere in an instance.
“It’s not my fault,” she cried. “I didn’t chose this, I never wanted this.”
“It’s to late now, you have it Miki, what am I meant to do? How am I meant to fix this!” he yelled at her again, his voice quivering as he spoke.
“Shut the hell up both of you,” I yelled looking up at them both their eyes wide, and the mouths slightly open.
“ I hate this, I hate you both!” I could feel myself shaking, my heart thumping again, the train rolling in as I looked at them.
“ Look at you both, take a good look, all you doing is fighting, fighting, it’s just, just making it all worse.” Tears fell down my cheeks as I pointed at Cam.
“You, you yell at Miki for not telling me… but in the end your hurting me more, you knew all this time and didn’t say a word to me, not one bloody word. You left me all alone, what should I expect it’s not like we’re family!” I looked at Miki then her face showed so many emotions I wasn’t sure what she was thinking, so I sighed and pointed to her.
“ I never once expected you to love me, you were a mum I never had, and then you go and do this to me, Miki my heart it hurts what did you do?” they didn’t move, sobs escaped me as I placed my head onto my knees.
“Althea…” his voice trailed across slowly, whiles the sound of a soft footstep slowly. I looked up to see Cam’s face his brown eyes full of worry, but I don’t care anymore this is all way too much.
“Go away…”
“Thea… I cant…” “Go away” I cut in saying louder.
“Alth…” “Go away,” I yelled at him and throwing my arms up into the air, before running up the stairs. “Leave me alone,” I said loudly before slamming my bedroom door and clasping next to it. I cried I don’t know how long for or what time it was. I just laid there my back against the wall and my tears soaking into the carpeted floor, my body shaking and my smile now long lost. I don’t know what to live for now, why I’m here. My family is falling a part and I can’t do anything about it. My life in tattered ruins and my spirit split in half. Why am I here, why did my mum leave me? This is stupid, I hate this, hate it.
I can’t handle all this at once, I don’t need it, I don’t, why? I clenched my fists and hit the floor, forcing my already sore hand to throb again and again. I can’t believe this is all happening, I just want it back to where it was, back to when things were simple. When we were all a happy family, when Cam use to stay with me and wake me up. When Miki would work around like a busy bee, and bring home the most interesting stuff. Why can’t I have it back, why is it all being taken away from me? What did I ever do?
I rubbed my eyes sitting up with my back against the door, my dark blue t-shirt was all ruffled with a wet spot from all the crying, my jeans felt tight and uncomfortable as I curled my knees up to my chest. Closing my eyes as I rested my head against the door, letting my blonde-brown curls hang in my face.
I wish I never found out, I wish this never happened, but now it has I can’t change it even if I tried. I don’t want to be here, I don’t want this. God please save me….
hope you enjoyed chapter 4!!!!<3
O.OChapter 4 is now up!!!! its a bit smaller then usual.... but hope you all enjoy it!!!!!
Big thanks to alll who have read n comment on the last chapters
and if you are new to my lil book... story then please read the first 3 chaps... heres the links:
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now its time for chapter 4:
I woke up sweat running down my forehead, Cam was nowhere to be seen; he must have left after I fell asleep. My heart fluttered as I looked at the time, it was four AM and all the sounds were gone. The silence was something I loved, no storm noises, no loud anything, just quiet. Except now I can hear the light mutters from downs stairs, like the chattering of birds. It was strange to hear as they became louder, as I am more aware of their presence. I moved slowly off my bed and crept quietly down the stairs, the noises became clearer as I edged the last step.
“…. She bloody going through shit, she cried in her sleep, Miki you have to tell her!” It was Cam’s voice no doubt and they were at it again, fighting and yelling because they thought I was asleep. Why is this happening?
“ I can’t Cam, she been through enough… I don’t want her hurting to…” Miki’s voice quivered in reply.
“Miki if you don’t tell her, I will,” he growled at her.
“ What… What am I meant to say, oh hey sweetie I just like to tell you I have cancer…” My mouth dropped as I stumbled back on the stairs, my hand screaming in pain as I land on it, with my heart feeling like it had stopped and ran away from me, just so it could escape all the pain.
The door swung open and Miki rushed out, her dressing gown pulled tight around her, her hair a mess and her face grave. She looked at me with sorrow filled eyes, which edged into my soul.
“Sweetie..” she spoke, but it was to late now, I knew what was going and she didn’t tell me, she did want to tell me, but it cant be.
“No… “ I muttered as a tear ran down my cheek. “ No, Miki why? Why didn’t you say anything?”
“I… I didn’t want to hurt you,” she whispered.
“What and by not telling me this saves me from hurting, Miki what if it was to late! What if you were lying in hospital dead! Don’t you think that would hurt me more? Miki!” I yelled at her with all my might, my heart sinking inside me, it hurt. It hurts like hell, like my whole world is crashing over, with a raging ring of flames and the demons that all come with it.
“I’m sorry,” she pleaded bending down trying to comfort me, but she was to late. It’s too late, I have lost it, my world, and the only thing I know, now will have a piece missing. That piece, one that I have loved for years is dying.
“No your not, your not sorry at all,” I screamed pulling my head in my hands curling myself into a ball. I heard the door slam against the wall; a looming figure entered my mind as a dark spark hit the walls of my heart.
“See Miki, look at her look what you have done!” Cam yelled forcing the whole room to shift atmosphere in an instance.
“It’s not my fault,” she cried. “I didn’t chose this, I never wanted this.”
“It’s to late now, you have it Miki, what am I meant to do? How am I meant to fix this!” he yelled at her again, his voice quivering as he spoke.
“Shut the hell up both of you,” I yelled looking up at them both their eyes wide, and the mouths slightly open.
“ I hate this, I hate you both!” I could feel myself shaking, my heart thumping again, the train rolling in as I looked at them.
“ Look at you both, take a good look, all you doing is fighting, fighting, it’s just, just making it all worse.” Tears fell down my cheeks as I pointed at Cam.
“You, you yell at Miki for not telling me… but in the end your hurting me more, you knew all this time and didn’t say a word to me, not one bloody word. You left me all alone, what should I expect it’s not like we’re family!” I looked at Miki then her face showed so many emotions I wasn’t sure what she was thinking, so I sighed and pointed to her.
“ I never once expected you to love me, you were a mum I never had, and then you go and do this to me, Miki my heart it hurts what did you do?” they didn’t move, sobs escaped me as I placed my head onto my knees.
“Althea…” his voice trailed across slowly, whiles the sound of a soft footstep slowly. I looked up to see Cam’s face his brown eyes full of worry, but I don’t care anymore this is all way too much.
“Go away…”
“Thea… I cant…” “Go away” I cut in saying louder.
“Alth…” “Go away,” I yelled at him and throwing my arms up into the air, before running up the stairs. “Leave me alone,” I said loudly before slamming my bedroom door and clasping next to it. I cried I don’t know how long for or what time it was. I just laid there my back against the wall and my tears soaking into the carpeted floor, my body shaking and my smile now long lost. I don’t know what to live for now, why I’m here. My family is falling a part and I can’t do anything about it. My life in tattered ruins and my spirit split in half. Why am I here, why did my mum leave me? This is stupid, I hate this, hate it.
I can’t handle all this at once, I don’t need it, I don’t, why? I clenched my fists and hit the floor, forcing my already sore hand to throb again and again. I can’t believe this is all happening, I just want it back to where it was, back to when things were simple. When we were all a happy family, when Cam use to stay with me and wake me up. When Miki would work around like a busy bee, and bring home the most interesting stuff. Why can’t I have it back, why is it all being taken away from me? What did I ever do?
I rubbed my eyes sitting up with my back against the door, my dark blue t-shirt was all ruffled with a wet spot from all the crying, my jeans felt tight and uncomfortable as I curled my knees up to my chest. Closing my eyes as I rested my head against the door, letting my blonde-brown curls hang in my face.
I wish I never found out, I wish this never happened, but now it has I can’t change it even if I tried. I don’t want to be here, I don’t want this. God please save me….
hope you enjoyed chapter 4!!!!
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