Beat, beat, knock, knock my soul hears your beckoning
but I can't feel enough or care enough to answer the call
the tragedies of my life my heart broken reckoning
is reconciled in my coldness, my hearts loving fall
As I grew I wanted the love of that beautiful girl
I wanted her to want me so I could give her the world
but she wouldn't have me she gave my love a whirl
sending it away from her into the abyss she hurled
My love was always met with cold rejection
even at the realization of my loved ones interception
I tried to give and they all rejected
or they took on occasion but showed no gratitude
I a desperate loser they only suspected
but I tried to hold on to my fortitude
I gave up and accepted what I couldn't have, accepted who I am
I decided to no longer care, to seek my own gratification
I kept at distance those that hated me and hid from the ones whom my soul would damn
to my own heart my only desire was mutilation
now I am older and there are those begging for my love saying they can see "me"
they try to touch my spirit they try to grab my heart
but I see through the desperate struggle within them as if its a mirror image I see
so I turn them away or use them til' I've had my fill, evil made true art
now I'm called a villain
now I'm called horrible
now I'm called a man with an empty hole in my chest void of fillin'
now I'm called a chaos ***** a true dishonorable
but all I can do is remember the days I had a heart and a conscious
was the one who slayed that in me not a villain? not evil all through?
I not only defend but now I offend, always vicious
If I'm the villain then show me the hero true
I gave this world a chance and took the beatings again and again but now I've had enough
I could never be you're hero, that's not what you want
so go ahead try me and call my bluff
I'll be the villain if you want, but in truth I am just a misunderstood victim capable of sinnin'
now I ask who's the true villain? the one who's heart is hardened by the cruel ones of this land?
or the one that shattered that heart leaving it to be rebuilt hard as stone, none might understand.
but I can't feel enough or care enough to answer the call
the tragedies of my life my heart broken reckoning
is reconciled in my coldness, my hearts loving fall
As I grew I wanted the love of that beautiful girl
I wanted her to want me so I could give her the world
but she wouldn't have me she gave my love a whirl
sending it away from her into the abyss she hurled
My love was always met with cold rejection
even at the realization of my loved ones interception
I tried to give and they all rejected
or they took on occasion but showed no gratitude
I a desperate loser they only suspected
but I tried to hold on to my fortitude
I gave up and accepted what I couldn't have, accepted who I am
I decided to no longer care, to seek my own gratification
I kept at distance those that hated me and hid from the ones whom my soul would damn
to my own heart my only desire was mutilation
now I am older and there are those begging for my love saying they can see "me"
they try to touch my spirit they try to grab my heart
but I see through the desperate struggle within them as if its a mirror image I see
so I turn them away or use them til' I've had my fill, evil made true art
now I'm called a villain
now I'm called horrible
now I'm called a man with an empty hole in my chest void of fillin'
now I'm called a chaos ***** a true dishonorable
but all I can do is remember the days I had a heart and a conscious
was the one who slayed that in me not a villain? not evil all through?
I not only defend but now I offend, always vicious
If I'm the villain then show me the hero true
I gave this world a chance and took the beatings again and again but now I've had enough
I could never be you're hero, that's not what you want
so go ahead try me and call my bluff
I'll be the villain if you want, but in truth I am just a misunderstood victim capable of sinnin'
now I ask who's the true villain? the one who's heart is hardened by the cruel ones of this land?
or the one that shattered that heart leaving it to be rebuilt hard as stone, none might understand.
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