The Amazi Clan Castle

[Howard]

Is that what you really believe? Or is that just what you keep telling yourself? U_U

It's the truth I don't want her in a sexual manner anymore I only want her to move on and find happiness I feel bad being one of the people who just added to the pain in her life and want to make up for it.... I don't care what you say I care for her but not like I used to I care for her as a friend does another friend..... I don't care what you believe because I know....

 

[Xinroki]

It's the truth I don't want her in a sexual manner anymore I only want her to move on and find happiness I feel bad being one of the people who just added to the pain in her life and want to make up for it.... I don't care what you say I care for her but not like I used to I care for her as a friend does another friend..... I don't care what you believe because I know....

-Sigh- Keep telling yourself that.

Anyway. I believe a lot of people have told you the odds of her finding happiness are slim to none. You might as well wish for the sun to crash into the earth because the odds of that happening are a lot higher.

 

[Howard]

-Sigh- Keep telling yourself that.

Anyway. I believe a lot of people have told you the odds of her finding happiness are slim to none. You might as well wish for the sun to crash into the earth because the odds of that happening are a lot higher.

O_O I don't care about the odds damn it and I'm not telling myself anything I know.... :| I have moved on and I don't have to prove it to you I have to prove it to Samantha........ I don't want your opinion and I really don't care for your two cents worth of ideals.....

 

[Xinroki]

O_O I don't care about the odds damn it and I'm not telling myself anything I know.... :| I have moved on and I don't have to prove it to you I have to prove it to Samantha........ I don't want your opinion and I really don't care for your two cents worth of ideals.....

I'm just telling you what the odds are. I have been friends with Kate since 6th grade. And not once have I seen here even try to find happiness. She has been asked out by many MANY men. And she turns them all away. I think you were just lucky because you cought her on one of her good days.

 

[Howard]

I'm just telling you what the odds are. I have been friends with Kate since 6th grade. And not once have I seen here even try to find happiness. She has been asked out by many MANY men. And she turns them all away. I think you were just lucky because you cought her on one of her good days.

Yeah I pretty much figured I had beat the odds when I got with her but I want to make up for all the guys who've let her down and it's not working out since I seem to be one of them.....

 

[Xinroki]

Yeah I pretty much figured I had beat the odds when I got with her but I want to make up for all the guys who've let her down and it's not working out since I seem to be one of them.....

You can't fix what has been broking time and time again. Sooner or later after you break it a lot of times, you just give up on it. And thats what people have done. There was one guy that had *** with her, then left her not even a week later because she said she didn't want to go again. Which all leads down to, she was just there to be his *****. I ended up in prison for a year because I broke the guys right arm and left leg.

 

[Howard]

Yeah I know the story the dude took advantage of her she told me it was her first time I think she didn't like how it felt....... you don't have to tell me I got as close to her as I could before everything happened.... but I wont give up there has to be something I can do as a friend......

 

[Xinroki]

Yeah I know the story the dude took advantage of her she told me it was her first time I think she didn't like how it felt....... you don't have to tell me I got as close to her as I could before everything happened.... but I wont give up there has to be something I can do as a friend......

She has made it a rule of hers to keep away Ex-boyfriends. What category are you under again?

 

[Howard]

She has made it a rule of hers to keep away Ex-boyfriends. What category are you under again?

O_O Friend... U_U I think I mean she doesn't tell me to leave you read the posts I asked her more than once if she just wanted me to leave and she never told me to...... I've gone around a lot of her rules if you look back.... what's one more...?

 

[Xinroki]

O_O Friend... U_U I think I mean she doesn't tell me to leave you read the posts I asked her more than once if she just wanted me to leave and she never told me to...... I've gone around a lot of her rules if you look back.... what's one more...?

If you read the posts back I don't think she ever said she considered you a friend. I believe she told you in several different posts to go away and forget about her. How many more hints do you need?

 

[Howard]

If you read the posts back I don't think she ever said she considered you a friend. I believe she told you in several different posts to go away and forget about her. How many more hints do you need?

She never told me to leave.... she told me to forget, not to worry, and to move on.... never to leave her alone I asked multiple times if she wanted me to leave her alone..... I've told her I can't forget, and I can't stop worrying about her but I can easily leave her alone if she wants me to.... and if she doesn't consider me a friend than woo hoo sucks to be me I'll survive and if she wants me to leave her alone all she had/has to say is go and I wont speak to her and I will distance myself from her but until I hear the words from her mouth I will continue to try to be her friend and continue to try to talk to her if it's ok with both her and Samantha......

And I said friend I THINK it doesn't mean I know what she wants me to do, she might want me to die in a ditch somewhere but I want to make up for what I did to her...

 

[Xinroki]

She never told me to leave.... she told me to forget, not to worry, and to move on.... never to leave her alone I asked multiple times if she wanted me to leave her alone..... I've told her I can't forget, and I can't stop worrying about her but I can easily leave her alone if she wants me to.... and if she doesn't consider me a friend than woo hoo sucks to be me I'll survive and if she wants me to leave her alone all she had/has to say is go and I wont speak to her and I will distance myself from her but until I hear the words from her mouth I will continue to try to be her friend and continue to try to talk to her if it's ok with both her and Samantha......

And I said friend I THINK it doesn't mean I know what she wants me to do, she might want me to die in a ditch somewhere but I want to make up for what I did to her...

You continue to say you want to make it up to her and yet all I have seen you do is say sorry and say you want to make it up to her. When are you going to actually do something?

 

[Howard]

You continue to say you want to make it up to her and yet all I have seen you do is say sorry and say you want to make it up to her. When are you going to actually do something?

When I figure out what I can do.... there isn't to much I can do right now what would you like me to do?

 

[Howard]

What would you do there isn't all that much I can do but talk...... and try to help her any way I can...

 

[Xinroki]

When I figure out what I can do.... there isn't to much I can do right now what would you like me to do?

I'd like you to make her happy one way or the other. I don't care if its falling in love, finding a person for her to love like a friend of yours, I do not care. But obviously sitting around apologizing everytime you see her isn't working.

How long are you going to keep telling her sorry and telling her you care until she finally decides to leave you completely? Then what? Are you going to willing live with your guilt you aparently have for the rest of your life?

Here are your options:
1.) Stop trying to think of something and just do something.
2.) Continue to wait until she finally gives up.

Take your pick homey. Your options on limited.

 

[Howard]

Easier said than done I don't want to set her up with another guy just to have the same thing happen because I can't always know what another guy will do and then I have to rack my head with twice the guilt and I can't go back and I won't go back because I love Sam....

 

[Xinroki]

Easier said than done I don't want to set her up with another guy just to have the same thing happen because I can't always know what another guy will do and then I have to rack my head with twice the guilt and I can't go back and I won't go back because I love Sam....

Like I said. I don't care how you do it, just help me make it happen. I've been trying to make her happy since 6th grade. And I have had no luck what so ever. You were most likely the closest she has ever gotten to walking out of the dark. Then shit hit the fan. She doesn't show it, but I have known her long enough to know when shes hurting. She may always be hurting, but sometimes she hurts more then usual. I shouldn't have to tell you what you two had. She said your name at least twice a day at school and even on the way back from school to home. When she was sick and I was forcing her to get rest, she was always worrying that you wouldn't be happy with her for not getting on to say hi at least.

Anyway, I shouldn't have to explain this to you. Just help me find happiness for her, because she doesn't want to try and find happiness herself.

 

[Howard]

I'll do everything I can but I wish that there was more I could do but I got scared when she told me I would never know if she was truly smiling and I got scared when she said she didn't care if I stayed or if I just disappeared and I didn't want to admit it to myself but that's why I left the Ip stuff was just an excuse a cover up because I was scared that no matter what I did she would never really be happy and she would never really love me........


I hate what I did but I have to live with it and if there is anything I can do to make it up to her in the least little way I will try.........

 

[Xinroki]

I'll do everything I can but I wish that there was more I could do but I got scared when she told me I would never know if she was truly smiling and I got scared when she said she didn't care if I stayed or if I just disappeared and I didn't want to admit it to myself but that's why I left the Ip stuff was just an excuse a cover up because I was scared that no matter what I did she would never really be happy and she would never really love me........


I hate what I did but I have to live with it and if there is anything I can do to make it up to her in the least little way I will try.........

If I knew where you lived, you would be regretting telling me this.

Thadias left Kate, and I wanted to break his neck. If it wasn't for Kate telling me it was something both of them agreed to make happen, Thadias would either be dead right now or in a hospital. The fact that you were "Scared" just pisses me off. She was happy with you. She shouldn't have had to smile every 20 seconds and shouldn't have to do all that lovey dovey shit to prove she was happy. If you were truly in love with her back, you should have been able to tell just by looking at her. Hell, i'm not in love with her and I know when shes happy or not.

 

[Howard]

If I knew where you lived, you would be regretting telling me this.

Thadias left Kate, and I wanted to break his neck. If it wasn't for Kate telling me it was something both of them agreed to make happen, Thadias would either be dead right now or in a hospital. The fact that you were "Scared" just pisses me off.

It's not like I'm hiding from you if your pissed because I was scared I'm sorry would you like my street address would that make you feel better you already know the city and that state I live in I do regret what I did and I don't care what you think I was scared that she didn't want me and that I could never make her happy so I ran and I regret it....

121 south 5th street Jeannette Pa 15644 O_O.... there ya go....