She cheated on me, but I hate myself?

[Rize]

Inb4 "Crawling in my skin."
Seriously, though. It's not like I want to kill myself(even though sometimes I feel like i'd be better off dead), I just hate looking at myself in the mirror, knowing that I wasn't good enough.
I gave her practically everything, only for her to leave me for someone else. I can't do anything without being reminded that I failed to satisfy her. I get angry easier now, and I have no patience. It's been three months and I haven't gotten any better. The sad part is that I was originally using her to pass a class.

I would have posted this somewhere else, but I don't really have an account on any other website like this. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

 

[iNotorious]

Inb4 "Crawling in my skin."
Seriously, though. It's not like I want to kill myself(even though sometimes I feel like i'd be better off dead), I just hate looking at myself in the mirror, knowing that I wasn't good enough.
I gave her practically everything, only for her to leave me for someone else. I can't do anything without being reminded that I failed to satisfy her. I get angry easier now, and I have no patience. It's been three months and I haven't gotten any better. The sad part is that I was originally using her to pass a class.

I would have posted this somewhere else, but I don't really have an account on any other website like this. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

@Bold, karma is a bish.

Don't worry, she will get cheated on in the future and she will cry for few days. Don't worry about those type of people. Try to hang out with your friends more often and do a lot of stuff in life to get yourself busy so you won't think about that hoe no more.

I still don't understand why people would do that to their partners.. is it that hard to tell your partner that you don't like them anymore and it would be good to stay as friends?

 

[Bimbonium]

Well it's off your chest now, calm down tomorrow will be alright, if it isn't the next day will be......

 

[~Ethereal~]

Girls ain't worth shit, go for a woman bro.

 

[BLAZE]

I see

Spoiler

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

The sad part is that I was originally using her to pass a class.

 

[Monxstaa]

well i hope it gets better bro

 

[~Ethereal~]

I see

Spoiler

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

So mean. XD

 

[BLAZE]

So mean. XD

Says the bish who blocked my PM and VM >_>

 

[Urda]

I kind of felt bad for you until I seen this. :/

The sad part is that I was originally using her to pass a class.

 

[~Ethereal~]

Says the bish who blocked my PM and VM >_>

Not yours! It was for everyone.

 

[BLAZE]

Not yours! It was for everyone.

Why you gotta be so mean -_-

 

[~Ethereal~]

Why you gotta be so mean -_-

I opened the thing just for you. OT: OP hang in there, give yourself alone time and surround yourself with mates.

 

[BlacLord™]

You used her in the first place, so I don't blame her for getting her own back in this case. It's a shame she didn't slap you, imprint "user" on your arse with a hot iron and then throw you in a pit of bird feed.

 

[Waindo]

You used her in the first place, so I don't blame her for getting her own back in this case. It's a shame she didn't slap you, imprint "user" on your arse with a hot iron and then throw you in a pit of bird feed.

/thread.

 

[Donald J Trump]

I am not going to tell you what the answer is but guide you.

"I gave her practically everything".Mistake or not?

"I just hate looking at myself in the mirror, knowing that I wasn't good enough." Ego

 

[Demonic.]

I see

Spoiler

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

 

[Dantee]

I tried so hard and got so far in the end it doesn't even matter. Lol

The only thing you can do now is get a hotter girl and stunt on your ex.

 

[Natsu Shazneel]

Get a anime girlfriend. She won't leave you till your batteries run out.

 

[Rize]

I see

Spoiler

It starts with
One thing I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It’s so unreal
Didn’t look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on but didn’t even know
I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

One thing, I don’t know why
It doesn’t even matter how hard you try
Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme
To remind myself how
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I’m surprised it got so (far)
Things aren’t the way they were before
You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me
In the end

You kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when...

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know
I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this
There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter
I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn’t even matter

I should have worded that better. I wasn't dating her when I was in class with her- i was using her as an insurance that I would get a good grade on group projects- then we became friends, then we started dating. I can see how I would sound like an *******.

 

[Rize]

You used her in the first place, so I don't blame her for getting her own back in this case. It's a shame she didn't slap you, imprint "user" on your arse with a hot iron and then throw you in a pit of bird feed.

I should have worded that better. I wasn't dating her when I was in class with her- i was using her as an insurance that I would get a good grade on group projects- then we became friends, then we started dating. I can see how I would sound like an *******.