She cheated on me, but I hate myself?

[Rize]

I kind of felt bad for you until I seen this. :/

I should have worded that better. I wasn't dating her when I was in class with her- i was using her as an insurance that I would get a good grade on group projects- then we became friends, then we started dating. I can see how I would sound like an *******.

 

[DominiqueX]

Inb4 "Crawling in my skin."
Seriously, though. It's not like I want to kill myself(even though sometimes I feel like i'd be better off dead), I just hate looking at myself in the mirror, knowing that I wasn't good enough.
I gave her practically everything, only for her to leave me for someone else. I can't do anything without being reminded that I failed to satisfy her. I get angry easier now, and I have no patience. It's been three months and I haven't gotten any better. The sad part is that I was originally using her to pass a class.

I would have posted this somewhere else, but I don't really have an account on any other website like this. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

@bold and underlined:
You "used" her? In which way?
Did she give you inspiration and support or were you really "using" her in some way like "exploiting"? If it is the latter, then you deserve it, I guess.

Edit:
I should read the whole thread first @_@
Hm, the "insurance"-thing still bothers me. But if I was in your position, I'd just let go and move on to other things to divert my mind from this topic.

 

[Deadlift]

Inb4 "Crawling in my skin."
Seriously, though. It's not like I want to kill myself(even though sometimes I feel like i'd be better off dead), I just hate looking at myself in the mirror, knowing that I wasn't good enough.
I gave her practically everything, only for her to leave me for someone else. I can't do anything without being reminded that I failed to satisfy her. I get angry easier now, and I have no patience. It's been three months and I haven't gotten any better. The sad part is that I was originally using her to pass a class.

I would have posted this somewhere else, but I don't really have an account on any other website like this. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

1) You've done well to share what you feel with other people, even if nerds in a forum about Naruto
2) Never tried to do something good for someone else? It definitely increases a lot your self esteem, I experienced this too so I know what I'm talking about.
Hope I've been at least just a little useful