I dedicate this to one who took my broken heart,
and filled it with more joy than I could have ever hoped.
I'm sorry that you will never see this...
The time we spent together was brief, but it was the best time of my life.
You were never selfish, never cold, always loving, striking and bold.
You made me feel whole, and I treated you wrong.
I had no reason to push you away, ignore and torment you,
you loved me, and I let you go.
Why?
You were the first one to show me I was loveable,
you were the first one to kiss me and love it,
you were the first one to accept my good, with my bad,
you were the first one to tell me I was special...
And I threw it back in your face...
You are happy now, with another man,
and I am happy he makes you so.
I won't forgive myself and I won't forget,
and because you have, I feel so much worse...
Why?
After all the pain I caused...
How can you forgive me?
I know I never will.
And I will carry that weight,
for the rest of my life.
I had a Broken Heart once...
You fixed it,
I broke your heart once,
he fixed it...
I would rather you broke my bones,
than forgive me breaking your heart.
Broken Hearts hurt more than Broken Bones.
But a Broken Bone heals by itself.
Without you here to heal this pain,
I fear my heart, I will never regain.
If you didn't like the auto-play then this is an apology is advance,
but please don't comment if it's just to complain about something I have apologized for.
Song is Promise: Final Version. By Thomas Bergersen.
This is the song that sums my feelings for her...
Perfection, captured in music.
The only counter to my imperfections...
This is only my second attempt at writing like this.
And I am discovering that venting my anger, frustration,
sorrow, fear, love, hate and... Jealousy... Is healthy,
I have decided.
I will be doing one of these per day, if I can,
some might have auto play, some might not.
I will put "AP" in the title as a warning.
If you enjoy my writing then my work might even expand,
but right now, venting is all I am focusing on...
If you are truly interested in this piece, then read on.
I fell in love once. We loved each other unconditionally,
but I was shy. I pushed her away.
This lead to me avoiding her,
I made excuses, I couldn't face her.
Eventually we just drifted apart.
Now she is happy, very happy.
We still talk, but it's just not the same.
My first love was a complete disaster,
and because of this I don't think I can love again...
Maybe one day, when my wounds heal, I will try again.
But right now, this is all I can manage.
:T_T::T_T::T_T:
Thanks for reading
and filled it with more joy than I could have ever hoped.
I'm sorry that you will never see this...
The time we spent together was brief, but it was the best time of my life.
You were never selfish, never cold, always loving, striking and bold.
You made me feel whole, and I treated you wrong.
I had no reason to push you away, ignore and torment you,
you loved me, and I let you go.
Why?
You were the first one to show me I was loveable,
you were the first one to kiss me and love it,
you were the first one to accept my good, with my bad,
you were the first one to tell me I was special...
And I threw it back in your face...
You are happy now, with another man,
and I am happy he makes you so.
I won't forgive myself and I won't forget,
and because you have, I feel so much worse...
Why?
After all the pain I caused...
How can you forgive me?
I know I never will.
And I will carry that weight,
for the rest of my life.
I had a Broken Heart once...
You fixed it,
I broke your heart once,
he fixed it...
I would rather you broke my bones,
than forgive me breaking your heart.
Broken Hearts hurt more than Broken Bones.
But a Broken Bone heals by itself.
Without you here to heal this pain,
I fear my heart, I will never regain.
If you didn't like the auto-play then this is an apology is advance,
but please don't comment if it's just to complain about something I have apologized for.
Song is Promise: Final Version. By Thomas Bergersen.
This is the song that sums my feelings for her...
Perfection, captured in music.
The only counter to my imperfections...
This is only my second attempt at writing like this.
And I am discovering that venting my anger, frustration,
sorrow, fear, love, hate and... Jealousy... Is healthy,
I have decided.
I will be doing one of these per day, if I can,
some might have auto play, some might not.
I will put "AP" in the title as a warning.
If you enjoy my writing then my work might even expand,
but right now, venting is all I am focusing on...
If you are truly interested in this piece, then read on.
I fell in love once. We loved each other unconditionally,
but I was shy. I pushed her away.
This lead to me avoiding her,
I made excuses, I couldn't face her.
Eventually we just drifted apart.
Now she is happy, very happy.
We still talk, but it's just not the same.
My first love was a complete disaster,
and because of this I don't think I can love again...
Maybe one day, when my wounds heal, I will try again.
But right now, this is all I can manage.
:T_T::T_T::T_T:
Thanks for reading
