yo honestly its harder for me to be good personally. im just going to be completely honest since i have the chance here and only people that care will read all of this..
but the level of fame ive achieved comes with a lot of temptation and is toxic mentally, i am a Sith but i try to be a good person but its harder, some people are just heroes, like i dont have that but i admire it and try to be. for perspective, i have more fans and listeners on streaming services than populations of multiple provinces in Canada combined. actually the two biggest cities here in the U.S. NYC and L.A. i have more followers on instagram alone than both of their populations combined. daily i just have people telling me how great i am or inspire them, amateur music artists aspiring to be like me. people i use to look up too, looking to me for advice and wanting to work with me, being offered thousands of dollars to do what i love or to make appearances, or to wear clothing, like i got offered $50k this morning by this brand to post a image of me wearing one of their shirts. i made over $50mil alone doing what i love, and ive only been on one world tour. i went from having zero money to having more money than anyone in my family tree, i could spend a million dollars a year for 80 years and still be straight. like ive lost all humility, im dope asf and ive mastered so many things. ive accomplished so much and im not even 30, i see other people and theyre full of excuses and are lazy, no kind of discipline or passion, their mindset is all fucked up. so many people are just not smart and i have to try to not be mean. but its easy for me to look down on others and make them feel like shit but i try my best not too
then like i was already handsome, charming and in great shape -before- i became famous, so i got pussy but...its like it increased x10 after, the fact. i have so many beautiful women trying to get at me daily, like i could so easily just cheat on my girlfriend, like i have to try to stay to my promise. actually before i dated my girlfriend, i was dating three beautiful women and rotating through them in a week. when i was in L.A. i was Vader. Darth Vader dabbled in the dark side but went full in after his heart was broke, that was me. i was breaking hearts, like i was such a savage, stacking money, buying shit -just- to flex and make others feel bad about themselves. ruining relationships by taking dudes ladies, buying lots of drugs, doing lots of drugs, playing mind games with people and manipulating them. i fully embraced my dark side and its always apart of me and its so much easier and more fun to be devilish than a saint
then just being wealthy in general. so much of me just wants to stunt and im petty, like i have to rise above, its so easy because i have so much power. like this publication wrote a straight just attack article towards me when i was in L.A. on their website i bought the whole company, had the head editor write and publish a retraction statement, have all of his editors apologize, then fired the chief editor and put the janitor over the editorial staff, then sold the company for more than i bought it for, the janitor got lucky he was actually failed writer so that. i was at an art gallery and this curator, he was such a douche. i paid gang members to jump this dude in the parking lot and throw him in the dumpster. like its so easy, i could have a hit placed on someone if i wanted too without doing anything. i just bought tickets for me and my girlfriend to go to the south of France tomorrow for a week, just cause, i wanted to buy out all of the first class tickets so i didnt have to be around anyone else. but i had to try and consider how that might inconvenience others. i can be a good person, like i just donated $100k to flooding in Sudan, Africa yesterday.. i own three apartment complexes and i waived rent for people that lost work during COVID last month and this month. but i had to learn to try and use my power to empower others rather than bring them down or enable them. i try though but its more effort for me