Listen i decided to be my own kind because almost everyone in my circle is perverted sometimes i say i am interested in the opposite but not in that way
they tell me i am probably gay because i hate porn and whenever some scenes appear i treat them different than perverted actually i am not gay but if all this things are normal and makes one a true man ok they can never change me then i am just not a true man but i am not gay either
At the beginning i accepted but now they just went too far so in fact whenever someone even mentions words like "hot" or "atractive body" in my presence i shout them down for being like that in the classsroom i need to hold myself back
I even hate it when someone would call me attractive because i just know they only go for the same things
Whenever i find something what is human like attractive i deny it forcefully for the sake of not being like "them" i actually still call my PS3 attractive without problems
Because if i would even have dreams of girls i would be like the perverts and i never want to be like people that always treated me unfair or that simply disgust me
well if someone is still an ok person but does it secretely i do not bother but sometimes some persons that hanged out with my brother are making those jokes and then they ask me "about my attractive feelings" i always just tell them i have none i actually might have some but i defeated them inside of me because i will never be like this this cannot possibly be Pride
I always had a few secret desires but i deny them because i dont want to be a pervert actually i had soem desires for the opposite but i threw that away
That is exactly why i am almost close to an asexual my will is to be asexual but my heart actually says it wants the straight but too bad for my heart my brain is stronger i am close to the asexual i just need some time to force it in me
I just explained why i am gonna ask those questions
Is really being a pervert making you a man? So makes that me a ******? Can someone understand how i feel?
they tell me i am probably gay because i hate porn and whenever some scenes appear i treat them different than perverted actually i am not gay but if all this things are normal and makes one a true man ok they can never change me then i am just not a true man but i am not gay either
At the beginning i accepted but now they just went too far so in fact whenever someone even mentions words like "hot" or "atractive body" in my presence i shout them down for being like that in the classsroom i need to hold myself back
I even hate it when someone would call me attractive because i just know they only go for the same things
Whenever i find something what is human like attractive i deny it forcefully for the sake of not being like "them" i actually still call my PS3 attractive without problems
Because if i would even have dreams of girls i would be like the perverts and i never want to be like people that always treated me unfair or that simply disgust me
well if someone is still an ok person but does it secretely i do not bother but sometimes some persons that hanged out with my brother are making those jokes and then they ask me "about my attractive feelings" i always just tell them i have none i actually might have some but i defeated them inside of me because i will never be like this this cannot possibly be Pride
I always had a few secret desires but i deny them because i dont want to be a pervert actually i had soem desires for the opposite but i threw that away
That is exactly why i am almost close to an asexual my will is to be asexual but my heart actually says it wants the straight but too bad for my heart my brain is stronger i am close to the asexual i just need some time to force it in me
I just explained why i am gonna ask those questions
Is really being a pervert making you a man? So makes that me a ******? Can someone understand how i feel?