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My life is pretty much fuked up lol. I'm done. All this depression I suffer. My heart is so weak. I am nothing but a failure. I just don't know what to do anymore..
My life is pretty much fuked up lol. I'm done. All this depression I suffer. My heart is so weak. I am nothing but a failure. I just don't know what to do anymore..
My life is pretty much fuked up lol. I'm done. All this depression I suffer. My heart is so weak. I am nothing but a failure. I just don't know what to do anymore..
hmm ............... something must have happened/triggered this. it's alright bro, am willing to listen of course if you wanna talk about this (PM if necessary).
I'm just uninterested with this government system. I'm uninterested in engaging in sexual activities.Uninterested in college.Uninterested in family...I shut everyone off for a week, didn't go to my classes, and didn't leave my house. Cold part is...I didn't give a damn. When my cousin came to my apartment...I simply smiled an said 'I knew this was gonna happen'. Just didn't give a crap...I couldn't shut everyone away for a MONTH if possible.
This is why I plan to join the selective services...mainly for discipline...and to be put in a more controlled environment.Something to take my mind off of these apocalyptic dreams I've been having and personal issues. Being 'forced' to deal with people sounds like a good idea. I think I'll make good companions that way.
In addition,
I've been having profound astral projection experiences...lots of physical sensations. lots of mood swings. and chronic depression. Perhaps I'm lonely...I want someone, but i don't want anyone touching me.
My life is pretty much fuked up lol. I'm done. All this depression I suffer. My heart is so weak. I am nothing but a failure. I just don't know what to do anymore..
I see life as nothing more than Actions and Lessons.
Everything in the universe is here from cause and effect, every choice you make is under this principle as well. With everything you do there's a reaction and you learn something from it. Everyone that you create relationships with in your life has lesson for you to learn from them. As well as vice versa.
I believe life is necessary in order for you to reach higher planes of being.
I see life as nothing more than Actions and Lessons.
Everything in the universe is here from cause and effect, every choice you make is under this principle as well. With everything you do there's a reaction and you learn something from it. Everyone that you create relationships with in your life has lesson for you to learn from them. As well as vice versa.
I believe life is necessary in order for you to reach higher planes of being.
That's true. But in my current situation...it's all 'Blank'. I'm not feeling this current world...it's getting old.
We're in a society where we are forced to be categorized, subconsciously living up to the preconception of a label, and as a result we limit ourselves. We're pressured to limit ourselves...forced to negotiate with the insecurities of the general masses.
This is indeed how life is...but I wanna change it so bad. Rather than conforming.
Self-pitying yourself, thinking that'll make some sort of "God" notice your pain and fix your problems. it won't happen.
You're at that stage where you laugh at your pain...
After that, you'll contemplate suicide...but will never actually do it. ITS ALL POINTLESS.
I'm just uninterested with this government system. I'm uninterested in engaging in sexual activities.Uninterested in college.Uninterested in family...I shut everyone off for a week, didn't go to my classes, and didn't leave my house. Cold part is...I didn't give a damn. When my cousin came to my apartment...I simply smiled an said 'I knew this was gonna happen'. Just didn't give a crap...I couldn't shut everyone away for a MONTH if possible.
This is why I plan to join the selective services...mainly for discipline...and to be put in a more controlled environment.Something to take my mind off of these apocalyptic dreams I've been having and personal issues. Being 'forced' to deal with people sounds like a good idea. I think I'll make good companions that way.
In addition,
I've been having profound astral projection experiences...lots of physical sensations. lots of mood swings. and chronic depression. Perhaps I'm lonely...I want someone, but i don't want anyone touching me.
Never before have I seen a more pessimistic thread on the base.
Jesus...
no one's forcing you to "conform"
you do that yourself and then blame it on society because you don't feel as unique as you should
That's true. But in my current situation...it's all 'Blank'. I'm not feeling this current world...it's getting old.
We're in a society where we are forced to be categorized, subconsciously living up to the preconception of a label, and as a result we limit ourselves. We're pressured to limit ourselves...forced to negotiate with the insecurities of the general masses.
This is indeed how life is...but I wanna change it so bad. Rather than conforming.