Realization with reality

AlexUchina · Oct 13, 2013

As my school time goes by
my time here grows shorter
we go by hexters no semesters
I soon know things
Not knowing my right direction

Wanting the decision of college
or to support my country of the AF
but seeing one thing
I lose faith in self
on one track mind

Thinking I am never to achieve
never to be perfect
in their eyes
my parents lives
begins to darken my heart and mind

I want freedom
solution
Faith
trust
and myself

Knowing 1 hexter gone
honor roll then....
may be failing now
with nothing turn in
Trouble at this point

December comes close
have to pass
only 6 more credits
then done with school
but at a stand still

Where do I turn when the time comes?
When will I know it?
How do I know the right choice?
What will happen?
Why now?
Who am I in this realization of reality?.....

Urda · Oct 13, 2013

Not getting it, but it is cool poem.

accept pain · Oct 13, 2013

Death is your friend in the end.

AlexUchina · Oct 13, 2013

It is ok kichiro, its basically saying even after school many of us don't know what to do next.

Currahee · Oct 13, 2013

Tell me about it I'm finishing my first year in uni studying something I absolutely hate because my mother crushed all my other career aspirations by saying I will never get a job or earn money doing them. So now I'm studying a degree where my best hope at the end is I will be working 50 hours a week at work then taking work home with me and that's if I pass it.