Machiko
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This story is about someting I experienced around 1.5/2 years ago. Around 4 years ago I started suffering from panic disorder, I was distressed every single day. I had no will to still go on with school work, I had no will to live on actually, I was afraid I was going to die. I worried about every single thing, from swallowing my food to sleeping in the dark. I was taken to hospital by ambulance several times due to me fainting. It wasn't just normal fainting, before I fainted I saw this strange colorful spot at the center of my eye sight, which grew bigger and bigger until it covered my whole eye sight and then I lost conciousness and after that I would start distorting my limbs (this is from what I've heard). the doctors classified it as panic disorder since they had taken exams and there was nothing wrong with my health and I wasn't epileptic either. Up to this day I still haven't found the answer to what it is that actually happened to me up to 3 times. I doubt it can be classified as ''only a panich attack.'' The worst part is that it happened in my sleep or right at the moment I was falling asleep.
Anyway, moving on to the point. Around 1.5/2 years ago, around the time I was already kind of recovering from my panick disorder. There was this one morning in which I got up from bed, opened the curtains and walked to my closet. Suddenly I felt this powerful light shining upon me, accompanied with it was a sense of pure peace and unconditional love. There wasn't exactly a voice, it was kind of like a message that got delivered to me, there was no talking, there were no words, it was simply a message through feelings, kind of like a message to the soul and not to the head. In this message I was told not to worry about the future or the past, that I had to live in the present and that I had to enjoy the present without worrying about what would come. It also told me to take good care of my mother and to love her to bits. After several seconds, it could've even been 1 single second, it ended. And after that I knew that God had sent me a message.
I have only discussed this with my mother, but I don't dare talk to people about this since I know they won't believe me. But after many years of silence I can now break the ice and talk to people about it since I know that I may not have been the only one. I want to know if any of you has experienced anything like this before. And what exactly do you think this may have been.
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This story is about someting I experienced around 1.5/2 years ago. Around 4 years ago I started suffering from panic disorder, I was distressed every single day. I had no will to still go on with school work, I had no will to live on actually, I was afraid I was going to die. I worried about every single thing, from swallowing my food to sleeping in the dark. I was taken to hospital by ambulance several times due to me fainting. It wasn't just normal fainting, before I fainted I saw this strange colorful spot at the center of my eye sight, which grew bigger and bigger until it covered my whole eye sight and then I lost conciousness and after that I would start distorting my limbs (this is from what I've heard). the doctors classified it as panic disorder since they had taken exams and there was nothing wrong with my health and I wasn't epileptic either. Up to this day I still haven't found the answer to what it is that actually happened to me up to 3 times. I doubt it can be classified as ''only a panich attack.'' The worst part is that it happened in my sleep or right at the moment I was falling asleep.
Anyway, moving on to the point. Around 1.5/2 years ago, around the time I was already kind of recovering from my panick disorder. There was this one morning in which I got up from bed, opened the curtains and walked to my closet. Suddenly I felt this powerful light shining upon me, accompanied with it was a sense of pure peace and unconditional love. There wasn't exactly a voice, it was kind of like a message that got delivered to me, there was no talking, there were no words, it was simply a message through feelings, kind of like a message to the soul and not to the head. In this message I was told not to worry about the future or the past, that I had to live in the present and that I had to enjoy the present without worrying about what would come. It also told me to take good care of my mother and to love her to bits. After several seconds, it could've even been 1 single second, it ended. And after that I knew that God had sent me a message.
I have only discussed this with my mother, but I don't dare talk to people about this since I know they won't believe me. But after many years of silence I can now break the ice and talk to people about it since I know that I may not have been the only one. I want to know if any of you has experienced anything like this before. And what exactly do you think this may have been.
