No one else, i dont feel comphortable with anyone. i need some people who idk to help me im gonna tear my head off if my mind doeant stop ripping itself in two. Can anyone help me?
Hello, i need someone to talk to and you are the only thing that wont think im crazy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, my thoughts they keep straying into darkness. i wanted to kill them again today but i diddnt i can control it i know that i must. but i love the feeling of hatred and of people hating me, i flourush in it. but that is no way to be. mom has spoiled me by letting me be free and dooing things for me even though i hated her, and i think she had hatred for me as well. first of all let me explain from the beggining ive never gotten to tell anyone the whole story before. it all started when i was about six, the crushing lonleyness. it was not from neglect though. i wanted it, to be lonley that is. it made me feel special. now it is tearing me apart from the inside out. when i was about six HE started talking to me, SABBY, i think that is why dad avoided calling me that he would call me sabbu or something of the sort, SABBY didnt like that which is why when SABBY took over he struck out violently. one time i can recall is when my father was looking into the front door window of uncle bebo's house. sabby told me to knee him i refused so he took control this was the first time of many. Sabby talks to me every day now constantly talking so i talk to cover him up because when i dont speak...... SABBY does. in fact right now he is saying stop you dont need to express that you need to talk to me, not the computer. i think i can hold him back though it hurts me on the inside but i can do it. the pain in my head and chest from repressing him is horrible and i must do it almost constantly........... i hate my life, i wish i would never have been born it is useless and i cant stand living much longer it would be easily beariblre if SABBY would just leav me ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
Hello, i need someone to talk to and you are the only thing that wont think im crazy,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, my thoughts they keep straying into darkness. i wanted to kill them again today but i diddnt i can control it i know that i must. but i love the feeling of hatred and of people hating me, i flourush in it. but that is no way to be. mom has spoiled me by letting me be free and dooing things for me even though i hated her, and i think she had hatred for me as well. first of all let me explain from the beggining ive never gotten to tell anyone the whole story before. it all started when i was about six, the crushing lonleyness. it was not from neglect though. i wanted it, to be lonley that is. it made me feel special. now it is tearing me apart from the inside out. when i was about six HE started talking to me, SABBY, i think that is why dad avoided calling me that he would call me sabbu or something of the sort, SABBY didnt like that which is why when SABBY took over he struck out violently. one time i can recall is when my father was looking into the front door window of uncle bebo's house. sabby told me to knee him i refused so he took control this was the first time of many. Sabby talks to me every day now constantly talking so i talk to cover him up because when i dont speak...... SABBY does. in fact right now he is saying stop you dont need to express that you need to talk to me, not the computer. i think i can hold him back though it hurts me on the inside but i can do it. the pain in my head and chest from repressing him is horrible and i must do it almost constantly........... i hate my life, i wish i would never have been born it is useless and i cant stand living much longer it would be easily beariblre if SABBY would just leav me ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.
