My Rented House

[Stream Of Tears77]

I knew that others have somewhat of the same story but I havent really talked to them as much as I talk to u

 

[RAMENATOR]

I see.. well I'm glad I get to talk to you and that we have stuff in common. Some of it I wish neither of us had to experience, but that's life I suppose

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

yeah no one said life would be easy but u can eather push on or u can just kill urself cause uthink u ot it so bad I know thats shit coming from me but at times it gets to much to bare and I ave to unlode and that seems to be the best way I have found

 

[RAMENATOR]

Been there myself. I don't know what your views are, but my faith in God is what has kept me alive... If you'd rather not talk about that part of life, i understand. I'm not here to preach at anyone or say anything of the like. Just wanted to briefly share how I deal with things..

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

I dont belive in god no I'me very odd that way cause of where I live I live in the bible belt in the part of Oklahoma another reason I got picked on so much

 

[RAMENATOR]

Well, to each their own. Everyone has the freedom to make their choice so unless their killing kids or random people or something like that, I'm fine with that freedom. Makes me sad that people who claim to "love their neighbor" can be the most hypocritical. Some people just do things wrong and hurt people I guess

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

yeah I know that one to if my family that lives up in penn knew I dont belive in god they'ed burn me at the stake at lest I know my gandmother would try

 

[RAMENATOR]

Eh, I see where they come from, but doesn't make it right. Makes things worse actually. It's not fun when I get heat because of "guilt by association." And ya, I know plenty of people that feel that way too about their beliefs... if you don't believe exactly what they believe, you're shunned. But that's life. Can't please everybody

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

true but life is life or is it?

 

[RAMENATOR]

depends on your beliefs.. some say this is all you got, some say there's more, and others think something else. I believe there's more, but I also believe there are ways to make things better with what you got. It's hard,it takes time, but there are ways to change your outlook on the things you have.

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

yeah I know that it depends but its more of something I wrote I told u before that I write alot about death

 

[RAMENATOR]

Ah, I see.. i did find it to be an interesting question. Life can be like death itself.. a living nightmare for some, or others might be ok with it.

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

They say death is death and life is life. They are wrong. Life is death and death is life. When u die u begin a new life. And as you live you die every second of every day. So life is death and death is life.

 

[RAMENATOR]

Makes sense to me. I rather like that actually.

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

yeah I know I meant that one to make sense I have a few others that r a bit more disturbing

 

[RAMENATOR]

We all have disturbing parts in our lives.. sometimes we must fight our shadow, or embrace it.. I fight mine because if I embraced the dark parts of my life, people might get hurt

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

theres no one to get hurt other than Kid and u but I one embrace it when I write

 

[RAMENATOR]

Since I want to save lives, the shadow in my life would be the opposite. I cannot embrace my shadow so to speak. I don't want to become someone who hurts people rather than help.

 

[Stream Of Tears77]

its as hard to embrace them as to unembrace them Reame it would be better for u in the long run to just keep ur back turned on them U_U

 

[RAMENATOR]

Exactly, that's why I use the analogy of a shadow. It's the opposite of me. It's not who I am. Well, sorry to go so early, but I'm actually kinda tired already.