The Alchemist
Active member
I wrote this in memory of two friends of mine. Give your feedback but please be respectful to the deceased.
Click link below to hear the instrumental while you read (don't start reading til the beat drops)
Life goes On (Martyr’s Song)
If
You've never contemplated suicide you have no right
To call a man a coward for taking his own life
In this world of anguish and strife
We all know pain
We all well acquainted with that sorrowful dame
I
Tried to ignore her but I ignored her in vain
I thought I'd finally beat her but she always came back again
So I drank liquor and even smoked weed
Trying to hold her at bay but she'd come to me even in my sleep
So now I feel trapped on this Ferris wheel
So I started snorting the powder of crushed up Xanax pills
Then I can smile at that bitch with glee
Until I finally come down and fall soberly to my knees
And since the pills ain’t take that bitch away
I took a stronger drug that would leave me in a daze
With my eyes glazed my thoughts began to fade
For a while
But then she comes back with her own evil smile
And hate
Welled up and tears ran down my face
I'm filled with shame but for me it's already too late
Instead of dealing with it man I made even it worse
And now I'll never be free ‘til my body's in a hearse
I'm cursed
Now
I'm strung out chasing for that high
So I can wipe away the tears I cry
This feeling makes me want to ****ing die
Why, why, I can only ask why
What went wrong?
This monkey's on my back and gnawing on my bones
Makin' me feel so alone
What can I do but grip the chrome and let loose
A lead pill straight to my ****ing dome?
And when I **** back and pull this ****ing trigger....
(gunshots)
Life goes on as time ticks away
Tick tock goes the clock as night turns to day
Though another life is lost the world will be unfazed
So life goes on as time ticks away (x2)
It slowly ticks away…
It slowly ticks away…
Feeling like a rat caught in a trap or chased by savage cats
Now can you do the mathematics?
It’s so tragic how we deal with static that’s reminiscent of Alice chasing that ****ing white rabbit
Down to wonderland but in this wonderland thunder can manifest in another’s hand
And leave you bleeding
Pleading for mercy from these wicked demons
Who for a lifetime have been scheming to hear your painful screaming
Banging ain’t what you thinking
It’s a hard knock life and my heart’s grieving as I see your youthful will weaken
Shiver and shaking
As blood pools around your raiment
Guess this is payment for hanging
With the crew being a tough guy
But I can’t weep ‘cause gangsters don’t cry
We multiply to make sure all those mother ****ers die
And when we collide with the other side best believe
We gone ride in your memory
I’m full of pain and grief
So as I let off these rounds I begin to weep
Infected by this loathsome disease we call vengeance
Later I may pay penance
But right now I’m aiming at enemies that flee hoping that their lives are ending
My soul is rending
And being torn apart as I partake
In retaliation on this occasion because of this hate
I wish we could slow life down and simply pump the breaks
And reverse in order to save you but now it’s too ****ing late
You know what they say
The good die young
So I guess we all evil if we live beyond day one
That’s food for thought but we thoughtless when we shoot guns
And worry not that we just took the life of someone’s son
Revenge feels like the righteous path
I give no thought to the aftermath of my deeds because I’m full of wrath
This hood shit is such a ****ing trap
You either get locked in the pen for life or take a ****ing dirt nap
So bust first nigga, don’t bust back
Cause you might end up like *bloop* and get your wig pushed back
Life goes on as time ticks away
Tick-tock goes the clock as night turns to day
Though another life is lost the world will be unfazed
So life goes on as time ticks away (x2)
It slowly ticks away…
It slowly ticks away…
Trying to find distractions while dealing with all this madness
I feel like life’s a car chase and all we doing is crashing
I’m asking
For forgiveness cause I know that they were blasting
At me and not you your death should never even have happened
I shed a tear
The both of you died within the space of a year
But my death I no longer fear
Because I’m dead inside
Seeing them tears in your mothers eyes
Closed caskets for both of you ‘cause the natures of your demise
Were similar but different
I had to be a witness to your fall to drug dependence
And I stood by your side the night your life ended
Such a waste
Just another case of what happens when sorrow and hate are coupled with fate
She’s such a cruel mistress
What happened to your wife and daughter was a painful business
How else could you relieve your symptoms?
Only a lead pill could help relieve your pain
I just want you to know that your life wasn’t lived in vain
I’m sorry that my life style became your life’s bane
You told me that one day I’d be forced to change
Now I live with shame
**** chargin’ it to the game
This is my pain to carry forever in memory of your name
Possessed by visions of myself being slain
For abandoning the gang and going against the grain
It’ll happen no matter how much my mother tries to pray
So before the end comes I feel that these words I must say…
Life goes on as time ticks away
Tick-tock goes the clock as night turns to day
Though another life is lost the world will be unfazed
So life goes on as time ticks away
It slowly ticks away.
Click link below to hear the instrumental while you read (don't start reading til the beat drops)
Life goes On (Martyr’s Song)
If
You've never contemplated suicide you have no right
To call a man a coward for taking his own life
In this world of anguish and strife
We all know pain
We all well acquainted with that sorrowful dame
I
Tried to ignore her but I ignored her in vain
I thought I'd finally beat her but she always came back again
So I drank liquor and even smoked weed
Trying to hold her at bay but she'd come to me even in my sleep
So now I feel trapped on this Ferris wheel
So I started snorting the powder of crushed up Xanax pills
Then I can smile at that bitch with glee
Until I finally come down and fall soberly to my knees
And since the pills ain’t take that bitch away
I took a stronger drug that would leave me in a daze
With my eyes glazed my thoughts began to fade
For a while
But then she comes back with her own evil smile
And hate
Welled up and tears ran down my face
I'm filled with shame but for me it's already too late
Instead of dealing with it man I made even it worse
And now I'll never be free ‘til my body's in a hearse
I'm cursed
Now
I'm strung out chasing for that high
So I can wipe away the tears I cry
This feeling makes me want to ****ing die
Why, why, I can only ask why
What went wrong?
This monkey's on my back and gnawing on my bones
Makin' me feel so alone
What can I do but grip the chrome and let loose
A lead pill straight to my ****ing dome?
And when I **** back and pull this ****ing trigger....
(gunshots)
Life goes on as time ticks away
Tick tock goes the clock as night turns to day
Though another life is lost the world will be unfazed
So life goes on as time ticks away (x2)
It slowly ticks away…
It slowly ticks away…
Feeling like a rat caught in a trap or chased by savage cats
Now can you do the mathematics?
It’s so tragic how we deal with static that’s reminiscent of Alice chasing that ****ing white rabbit
Down to wonderland but in this wonderland thunder can manifest in another’s hand
And leave you bleeding
Pleading for mercy from these wicked demons
Who for a lifetime have been scheming to hear your painful screaming
Banging ain’t what you thinking
It’s a hard knock life and my heart’s grieving as I see your youthful will weaken
Shiver and shaking
As blood pools around your raiment
Guess this is payment for hanging
With the crew being a tough guy
But I can’t weep ‘cause gangsters don’t cry
We multiply to make sure all those mother ****ers die
And when we collide with the other side best believe
We gone ride in your memory
I’m full of pain and grief
So as I let off these rounds I begin to weep
Infected by this loathsome disease we call vengeance
Later I may pay penance
But right now I’m aiming at enemies that flee hoping that their lives are ending
My soul is rending
And being torn apart as I partake
In retaliation on this occasion because of this hate
I wish we could slow life down and simply pump the breaks
And reverse in order to save you but now it’s too ****ing late
You know what they say
The good die young
So I guess we all evil if we live beyond day one
That’s food for thought but we thoughtless when we shoot guns
And worry not that we just took the life of someone’s son
Revenge feels like the righteous path
I give no thought to the aftermath of my deeds because I’m full of wrath
This hood shit is such a ****ing trap
You either get locked in the pen for life or take a ****ing dirt nap
So bust first nigga, don’t bust back
Cause you might end up like *bloop* and get your wig pushed back
Life goes on as time ticks away
Tick-tock goes the clock as night turns to day
Though another life is lost the world will be unfazed
So life goes on as time ticks away (x2)
It slowly ticks away…
It slowly ticks away…
Trying to find distractions while dealing with all this madness
I feel like life’s a car chase and all we doing is crashing
I’m asking
For forgiveness cause I know that they were blasting
At me and not you your death should never even have happened
I shed a tear
The both of you died within the space of a year
But my death I no longer fear
Because I’m dead inside
Seeing them tears in your mothers eyes
Closed caskets for both of you ‘cause the natures of your demise
Were similar but different
I had to be a witness to your fall to drug dependence
And I stood by your side the night your life ended
Such a waste
Just another case of what happens when sorrow and hate are coupled with fate
She’s such a cruel mistress
What happened to your wife and daughter was a painful business
How else could you relieve your symptoms?
Only a lead pill could help relieve your pain
I just want you to know that your life wasn’t lived in vain
I’m sorry that my life style became your life’s bane
You told me that one day I’d be forced to change
Now I live with shame
**** chargin’ it to the game
This is my pain to carry forever in memory of your name
Possessed by visions of myself being slain
For abandoning the gang and going against the grain
It’ll happen no matter how much my mother tries to pray
So before the end comes I feel that these words I must say…
Life goes on as time ticks away
Tick-tock goes the clock as night turns to day
Though another life is lost the world will be unfazed
So life goes on as time ticks away
It slowly ticks away.
