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if my enligsh was very good i would wrote book about it...
but i now i try make long story very short..
teh dilemma of my faith....
i used to be religious..i alwys thought holy book was truth...ands religion is 100% my true guide....untill i start reading about filosofie...in filosofie u have rite to doubt and kestion everyting ...someting wasn't availabe in my previous religion..my curiosity start alarming so i start undstand that brain and mind have power above everyting....
slowly and slowly my mind start rejecting many religious beliefs tho even tho me didn't want to reject them.. (btw if i talk about me...there isn't just one me...but lot of MEs)....
anyway..
then wit flow of time i started realising that religions might not tell truth....i mean God knows well i wanna believe in him i even do my best...but he just not willling to help me..
slowly i start become atheist even tho i dont wanna be atheist..
then i startd accepting my new me teh atheist me...i thought maybe by being atheist i can find mind and heart and soul peaces...maybe i can find some truth at least....but guess what???...
after being atheist life start become like nightmare....teh amount kestions i used to suspect religions and god are just half teh amount of kestions i started doubting about atheism and non god existence...
if god don't exist then why this universe is so in harmony...it must have been created by someone....when i see monaliza of leonardo da vinci i dont say : " Oh my god what beautiful painting"...but rather i say " oh my god who drawed this beautiful painting!!!.."..
im lost in in endless labyrith cuz i just realized atheism was never my salvation...so plz god if u there exsit help me believe in you..will ya????..
if my enligsh was very good i would wrote book about it...
but i now i try make long story very short..
teh dilemma of my faith....
i used to be religious..i alwys thought holy book was truth...ands religion is 100% my true guide....untill i start reading about filosofie...in filosofie u have rite to doubt and kestion everyting ...someting wasn't availabe in my previous religion..my curiosity start alarming so i start undstand that brain and mind have power above everyting....
slowly and slowly my mind start rejecting many religious beliefs tho even tho me didn't want to reject them.. (btw if i talk about me...there isn't just one me...but lot of MEs)....
anyway..
then wit flow of time i started realising that religions might not tell truth....i mean God knows well i wanna believe in him i even do my best...but he just not willling to help me..
slowly i start become atheist even tho i dont wanna be atheist..
then i startd accepting my new me teh atheist me...i thought maybe by being atheist i can find mind and heart and soul peaces...maybe i can find some truth at least....but guess what???...
after being atheist life start become like nightmare....teh amount kestions i used to suspect religions and god are just half teh amount of kestions i started doubting about atheism and non god existence...
if god don't exist then why this universe is so in harmony...it must have been created by someone....when i see monaliza of leonardo da vinci i dont say : " Oh my god what beautiful painting"...but rather i say " oh my god who drawed this beautiful painting!!!.."..
im lost in in endless labyrith cuz i just realized atheism was never my salvation...so plz god if u there exsit help me believe in you..will ya????..