I'll never be here again.
One day I wont remember this very moment, sitting here in the care with you, coming home from the beach.
I wont remember the smell of your car or the way it lights up.
I won't remember what your smile looks like or the deep rattling of your voice.
I wont recall how I hated the way you would hold my hand, all backwards and uncomfortable
or how you snored.
I won't remember how the first time we met I fell asleep with you holding me,
neither of us moved all night.
I wont recall the bright blue of your room,
that dumb cowboy hat you wore to concerts.
I wont remember craving sushi or how you got me blueberry muffins and chocolate milk in the middle of the night.
I wont remember your shitty tattoos or how I'd run my fingers over the veins in your arms.
I won't remember you.
I won't remember why I loved you or all the little things you said to me to hook me in.
I wont recall the holiday and birthdays. Gifts exchanged.
I won't remember that the necklace you gave me read " One person can make a difference, and that person is you".
How stupid I was to believe it.
Most of all, I wont remember the pain.
The sleepless nights and tears cried.
I won't remember how mean you could be or how you made me feel completely worthless.
How unloved I felt.
How completely and utterly invisible I was.
I won't remember how I was never enough or how I was always second to everyone.
I wont remember how you were only loving and affectionate when you were drunk.
I won't remember how you never told me I was beautiful.
I wont remember the fights I fought with you.
How we tore each other apart.
I'll tuck the memory of you away.
Not to be brought out.
You'll linger in my heart, in some dusty part and I'll wake one day without a thought of you in my mind.
One day, I wont remember you.
One day I wont remember this very moment, sitting here in the care with you, coming home from the beach.
I wont remember the smell of your car or the way it lights up.
I won't remember what your smile looks like or the deep rattling of your voice.
I wont recall how I hated the way you would hold my hand, all backwards and uncomfortable
or how you snored.
I won't remember how the first time we met I fell asleep with you holding me,
neither of us moved all night.
I wont recall the bright blue of your room,
that dumb cowboy hat you wore to concerts.
I wont remember craving sushi or how you got me blueberry muffins and chocolate milk in the middle of the night.
I wont remember your shitty tattoos or how I'd run my fingers over the veins in your arms.
I won't remember you.
I won't remember why I loved you or all the little things you said to me to hook me in.
I wont recall the holiday and birthdays. Gifts exchanged.
I won't remember that the necklace you gave me read " One person can make a difference, and that person is you".
How stupid I was to believe it.
Most of all, I wont remember the pain.
The sleepless nights and tears cried.
I won't remember how mean you could be or how you made me feel completely worthless.
How unloved I felt.
How completely and utterly invisible I was.
I won't remember how I was never enough or how I was always second to everyone.
I wont remember how you were only loving and affectionate when you were drunk.
I won't remember how you never told me I was beautiful.
I wont remember the fights I fought with you.
How we tore each other apart.
I'll tuck the memory of you away.
Not to be brought out.
You'll linger in my heart, in some dusty part and I'll wake one day without a thought of you in my mind.
One day, I wont remember you.