Well, thank you, you guys are right. Bulliying does shrink or stop ones happiness and personality when is the most important, and is only just developing(teens) but I guess its also my fault for being so weak, weak minded, for being to pure, they take advantage of people.. Now I really dont take crap from anybody, but now that I want to move on from this horrible brick wall that life put me through, now that I have a better mentality, is hard because now i dont have much friends.. And about the mall rat, I ocassionally do go out by myself to the library, mall, but most of the times go out with family, should i go out more by myself? When I go out by myself its also hard to meet people as they are with their own friends, family, their own people, and I just cant walk up to their group and start talking.. the society today is very closed up, theyll think im nuts..