Both. Though the boy for the second question was an atheist so I probably would have never confessed my two-week/temporary feelings. I don't hate atheists, and we're really good freinds, but it would be painful to be with one. I suck at relationships. I have no experience with them. I don't know how to handle them. Of course I'm interested in having *** and kissing but what if I'm really bad at it? What I'd the guy tells everyone how bad I an? How will I balance work school and a relationship? These were the things that led to me freind zoning several other guys. One of them was scruffy and thought hitting girls made him cool. Another had an extensive criminal record and was escorted by cops everywhere. Another was a fatass Mexican pervert who called me his ho. Another, and this was the least flawed, was a giant black guy who was just a little chubby. I'm short, and white. I'm not racist but I don't date black guys (hope you understand what I mean). Unfortunately these are the only Gus who hit are me. I did like one guy. He was tall but a giant, muscles but the right amount ya know? He kind of had pointy hair, but it looked good on him. He was cute. But again I'm not good with relationships. He would never be interested in me anyway do its cool! XD