i was thinking now that there is no greater sin than not being yourself, not following your own path. the way i see it u just have ufollow u own path. u have to be yourself. u have to do that what you feel. follow your own path, and never think of what u do is moral or not, good or not. u have to follow your own path. because the things u do in your life has to come thru u, if u do something that u dont feel like doing, if its something u dont feel like its for u, then ur not living ur life. for example, i kno many people who go and become monks. even tho they dont feel like doing so, they do it because of their parents or because this is a path that is easier or something. but if it doesnt come from the inner most being, then u can go and spend years and years and it is just a waste of time. because in that moment when u would enter the monestary, u would die, or u would ignore yourself, u would put urself behind. and now u would live the life of a monk and u would not feel in ur heart that is is for u. so u start living a life that is not yours. all of us we are special, all of us are different. and we come here to this world, not to become moral, not to come to a monastary, not to become this or that, we come here to follow our own paths. not path of our parents, not path of our leaders. and if your own path is to be a criminal or to kill, it is better for u to follow this path than to go to the monastary, cuz if u go to the monastary that will just be a waste of time. u will not be living, u will be ignoring your true self, your true self, your true self that came to this world to kill, now u ignore it and u go to meditate. what u have to do is u have to follow your path, even tho it wont be moral. because if u follow your path, and u do what u FEEL. that means that u take the responsibility of what u do. for example of u go and commit violence, then u take the responsibility of that. and what u give, u get. so later on u would have to pay for the things u have done, for the violence u have commited. but thru this being, u LEARN.
