What can i do to face my phobia??? like i can't control myself ! help!
There is an interesting exercise one can make. Just be aware that it is your brain playing tricks on you. Your phobia is like a movie playing, your irrational side of the brain projecting thoughts that produce chemical which make you feel things the way you feel.
Phobias aren't a nice thing but if you acknowledge them as a product of the right side of your brain, then you might succeed on overcoming them.
Just remember, it is all in your head, you can control it. Everytime the same thinking pattern begins, just notice those thoughts appearing and stop them, focus on your breeding.
Manga and shit aside, i wish you recover and can overcome this.