I told a recruiter I was backing out because I felt like I made a rash decision about it and I felt suicidal about it.. he became very mad and texted me, asked me why wont i pick up the phone like a man and said he'll document that I am suicidal so that none of the recruiters would waste their time working with me. He also said good luck in the future. Does this mean its in my Social Security? I actually lied about being suicidal so he won't question me further. But would it affect my civilian career path? I want to work at a bank or start a business.