Find joy in the little things. And aim for the big things.
Youre a smart, Logical kid, the best advice I can give you is concentrate on your school, and try to find a way to avoid being bullied. I suggest you fight back, or talk to the teachers etc.. whatever will get them off your back while maintaining your Dignity, so you will have no regrets. If your present suks then aim for a bright future, the best way is to bury yourself in your studies and get into a good college. In a few years you'll be 18, and you'll be making your own choices, in the meantime, try what you can to make things work out between you and between your parents. Trying doesnt hurt. But keep an open mind, and whatever comes, know thats life. C'est la vie. There are good and bad times ahead and past all of us, we just have to focus on what makes us happy.
for me. I always find the slightest hope in the darkest hours to make me feel better. And I spend my time doing what I enjoy to pass the time until the light is back.
What makes you happy? go out there and do it, even if you have to drag yourself due to circumstances. And get some new friends.
I remember when I was around your age, we had just moved to another neighbourhood and they were all long time friends there didnt want any stranger to interrupt their daily rutine. They were playing soccer so I approached them and I said can I play? Guy said no. I stood in the middle of the field and I said Im Playing, looking at them confidently. As much to my surprise, they accepted and soon enough we were all good friends. Point is, you gotta stand up for yourself and what you want, cuz life waits for no one.