I find absolutely no reason to keep on living. I'm not saying I wanted to die, but there is absolutely nothing for me to keep living for.
I feel terrible anguish almost about everything. I know that a huge amount of people have a worse life than mine, but I just feel kind of empty all the time.
It's like I keep waiting for my life to begin, when it's actually passing me by.
Also, I have this feeling that I'm not being true to myself or acting the way I would really act. It's like I give out totally different person than I actually am. Have I lost touch with reality.
What are your reasons to live? What are you looking forward to?
You all have really good points actually. And a big thank you for actually making me feel a bit better.
I have a feeling I'm being way too dramatic. I used to be stronger.
I've got to stop the whining and do something about the stuff that is bothering me I guess.
my reason to live are many, but few stand out above else. ive been where you are, and you dont want something to do. you want attention or for words less hard. u want to be recognized. and thats not a bad thing its human nature. everyone at one point or another is going to go threw something similar. and in my case the things that i realized is. doing anything less than your best is selfish. you say somethign true. people do have worse lives than we do. but theres more to everythign than just saying it. you have to experience the feeling of understanding that statment. you walking around with a emotionless face without any motivation to go one is selfish in its own right. people all over the world wish they were in a position to go on and do there best. but they just arent in the right place to do so. but still they endure and go on and achieve as much as they can. Dont do things in life to gain positive opinions of others. but do it to for your self. when you do something you may be judged on how you affect others, but in the end everything you do reflects on your self. you ask what keeps others going? well for me its the fact that i want to be the best i can be for ME, and i started this off about selfish ness so its kinda cliche that i say that, but when im constantly striveing to be the best. im helping everyone around be by not bringing them down with me as i would if i were moping around wondering why i cant feel the need to keep going on in life.
I actually never bring stuff like this up with my closest ones since they already have it hard without one more person being down.
I do admit that I could be a little self centered.
i dot mean it in a bad way. think of it like this. everything you ever felt in life. i gurantee has been felt by others. its not a situation specific to you, ive goen threw it to, only diffrence is some have learned from it and somehave fallen into the whole that is self pitty. normally i wouldnt even type all that up becasue of my own insecurities but, **** it lol its the internet and who knows when you can help someone. idk your situation all to well it was just my oponion. i dont mean any offense and dont judge you personally on anything you may be feeling