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What if my life was some kind of simulation, where I'm being used as a social experiment, and I'm here to test the limits of the human brain?Well, wake me up, cause I'm 6 years passed my limit.
Since childhood I've ALWAYS been fed up and "no BS", but every last bit of my tolerance ran out at age 17. Now I'm wondering, what the hell am I gonna do?That's a note to myself, don't need an answer to that. I just grew more and more tired as I got older.
Growing up I was always that kid that was just "over everything", and people use to hate that about me. My teacher took it as an insult, and my dad, aunts, cousins would all notice my attitude, and target me when I was just minding my own business. It was simply a reaction to their constant empty decisions. High school, people hated me for that same reason...they know I saw through them, and hated my attitude towards people and life. I made them feel severely insecure, so they'd come up with excuses to not like me...such as "why doesn't he never smile", when they're obviously jumping to conclusions, why "does he dress like that", "why doesn't he care". All kinds of reverse psychology, reflecting of my own disapproval of their behavior.
Yeah there were family connections, yeah their were "forced" connections with other people, yes I entertained school, I entertained jobs, etc...but I figured it all out, it's a total "facade" for compulsively jealous, competitive, attention-seekers. They don't want to "love" or help you, they want to manipulate you. They want "attention" from you, they wish to prove a point. They're liars.
Do you believe your life is just a simulation?
This subject keeps eating at me. I feel like I'm being toyed with, severely.
Since childhood I've ALWAYS been fed up and "no BS", but every last bit of my tolerance ran out at age 17. Now I'm wondering, what the hell am I gonna do?That's a note to myself, don't need an answer to that. I just grew more and more tired as I got older.
Growing up I was always that kid that was just "over everything", and people use to hate that about me. My teacher took it as an insult, and my dad, aunts, cousins would all notice my attitude, and target me when I was just minding my own business. It was simply a reaction to their constant empty decisions. High school, people hated me for that same reason...they know I saw through them, and hated my attitude towards people and life. I made them feel severely insecure, so they'd come up with excuses to not like me...such as "why doesn't he never smile", when they're obviously jumping to conclusions, why "does he dress like that", "why doesn't he care". All kinds of reverse psychology, reflecting of my own disapproval of their behavior.
Yeah there were family connections, yeah their were "forced" connections with other people, yes I entertained school, I entertained jobs, etc...but I figured it all out, it's a total "facade" for compulsively jealous, competitive, attention-seekers. They don't want to "love" or help you, they want to manipulate you. They want "attention" from you, they wish to prove a point. They're liars.
Do you believe your life is just a simulation?
This subject keeps eating at me. I feel like I'm being toyed with, severely.
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