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About 4 days after I made that thread, my girlfriend and I reconciled. I called her up and we went to a special park where we walked around and sat under a tree. We laughed, we cried, we poured our hearts out to each other. Not exactly my finest moment, but love makes a man do crazy things, yeah?
Fast forward to last Friday night and the same shit happened with the same song and dance. She called me up bawling that she didn't want to love me anymore. She told me being with me was destroying her mentality because she didn't know herself apart from me anymore and she couldn't handle her obsession with me. I told her we could work through it together and to give up now would be a waste. Then she blew me the **** away, she told me she had been cheating on me, she told me her family members were planning to catch me alone and jump me like a gang, she accused me of cheating, all this crazy shit. Then she sobbed some more and told me none of it was true... but that she needed another break. She says we're still together, she's gonna come back to me soon, she just wants me, all those kinds of pretty words.
And here we are on day 4, we haven't spoken since. I was completely numb until my friend saw her on Facebook, which was exceptionally strange because she detested social media. He told me she put up some photos that same Friday and had quite a few friends. I went and looked.. it was the pictures she had sent to me not long ago. Personal pictures that she said were specifically for me are now up for the entire world to stare at.
And it cut me deep, actually making me physically ill. But that night, I hit the skate park and I got a few numbers. I've been texting a few girls and I'm more than sure my girl is doing the same. What I don't understand is if she has every intention of coming back to me, why is she doing all this? If she's too obsessed with me, why is she talking to others instead of curing herself of her emotion for me? It doesn't add up.
At this moment... I'm mostly numbed to it. I'm mad and there's a soft stinging in my heart, but I just feel I've seen the worst of it all and nothing can surprise me anymore. I want her back so badly, but at the same time, I don't. I love her, but at the same time, I'm starting to ****ing hate her. It's such a weird mix that has my mind so boggled and caged, I feel like I could snap at any minute.
I'm supposed to go see her on Friday, because it's her sister's birthday and she asked me to come, but I don't know if I should. I can't decide if I should wait this out and pull her back to how we were or if I should start the healing process all over again and blow it all off. Thoughts? Questions? Comments? Concerns?
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]. From that topic I started, I received a lot of feedback, advice, and support which I appreciate immensely. Turns out there were others going through the same type of shit and my thread acted as a release for them, too. A couple people PM'd me and asked me to update them on progress, so here it goes.About 4 days after I made that thread, my girlfriend and I reconciled. I called her up and we went to a special park where we walked around and sat under a tree. We laughed, we cried, we poured our hearts out to each other. Not exactly my finest moment, but love makes a man do crazy things, yeah?
Fast forward to last Friday night and the same shit happened with the same song and dance. She called me up bawling that she didn't want to love me anymore. She told me being with me was destroying her mentality because she didn't know herself apart from me anymore and she couldn't handle her obsession with me. I told her we could work through it together and to give up now would be a waste. Then she blew me the **** away, she told me she had been cheating on me, she told me her family members were planning to catch me alone and jump me like a gang, she accused me of cheating, all this crazy shit. Then she sobbed some more and told me none of it was true... but that she needed another break. She says we're still together, she's gonna come back to me soon, she just wants me, all those kinds of pretty words.
And here we are on day 4, we haven't spoken since. I was completely numb until my friend saw her on Facebook, which was exceptionally strange because she detested social media. He told me she put up some photos that same Friday and had quite a few friends. I went and looked.. it was the pictures she had sent to me not long ago. Personal pictures that she said were specifically for me are now up for the entire world to stare at.
And it cut me deep, actually making me physically ill. But that night, I hit the skate park and I got a few numbers. I've been texting a few girls and I'm more than sure my girl is doing the same. What I don't understand is if she has every intention of coming back to me, why is she doing all this? If she's too obsessed with me, why is she talking to others instead of curing herself of her emotion for me? It doesn't add up.
At this moment... I'm mostly numbed to it. I'm mad and there's a soft stinging in my heart, but I just feel I've seen the worst of it all and nothing can surprise me anymore. I want her back so badly, but at the same time, I don't. I love her, but at the same time, I'm starting to ****ing hate her. It's such a weird mix that has my mind so boggled and caged, I feel like I could snap at any minute.
I'm supposed to go see her on Friday, because it's her sister's birthday and she asked me to come, but I don't know if I should. I can't decide if I should wait this out and pull her back to how we were or if I should start the healing process all over again and blow it all off. Thoughts? Questions? Comments? Concerns?
